AA Chapter 12.3

Just two months into being Tennessee’s boyfriend, there had been five episodes so far, and the period between nightmares and more nightmares was gradually shortening. And along with that…4624dc0d2792632f

Tick-tock…01ce54e0640eda04

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Amber thought he heard 7d103b97e6 the timer of a d9af55f760 time bomb rapidly counting fd8782532e down.8dc4248eab795778

Time flowed on, and the episodes grew more violent. Amber, watching from beside him, felt his blood drying up at the thought that he shouldn’t expect anything from Tennessee above all else. So he chose to keep his mouth shut. No matter what happened, he couldn’t let the situation become one where his suffering lover had to be the one to comfort him.de1d3f487c39b2c1

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Frustration ate 3bb5841afe away at 25cf73c36d Amber.c1aa3cfac14acac7

It was 9db6a3585b 4 AM. Unable to sleep at b3a3418c1a all, Amber had just afc20fd64b come out to the c31b93da7b dining room. He sat 7a623157a3 on the 98bc1bacc5 sofa and 91120392d6 turned on 5a7f7123b1 the TV. He watched 760c9cfc55 only the 8dae76470e black automatic 0a13454d59 captions flowing 6a7ab22f29 across the c1c588b358 screen, keeping 3e7a335491 the sound b3c4d890ce as low 2e6eb104cc as possible. The sight of mouths ebd4028287 moving with no sound c4d30dee48 looked just like himself. Screaming but b9642f9142 no cries d4e6a69554 being heard, f3ad1f2d6d struggling for 8fbbac4e44 help but bac8d6a3ec no lifeline c57c68d5cd coming down.850b74619f991233

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His chest felt tight. Who should 8892d2bc8a he talk e0ae73ee8b to? His adoptive parents? Tennessee, who would suffer ce27e5a980 the most?0e3af7a59265c3f8

“Amber.”067bf81a17f3f535

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“Tennessee?”2685506b707d727c

Startled, Amber got 00631393d3 up. Tennessee had 6a3f36a891 somehow come a47b9b6d6b out into d329a8cfea the hallway. After checking the 3602b4e5ff clock, Tennessee asked.72e1a4276db2101f

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“What are you doing here?”8ca2747e5e04d54c

“I can’t sleep.”d69b11e95dcc2b87

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“…Did I wake you again?”e11490e174626aa3

He was a029f5b085 talking about dea5bd9ac7 the episodes. Besides the episodes, Tennessee f48d439239 often showed symptoms of 5f67eb3e2f mildnyctophobia¹.df60f4d1e0425811

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Shaking his head 96475adcbf and spreading his 9440b94ae7 arms, Amber embraced 6694dbb114 him fully.43fc765ae009c354

Haah.fd2e9b602d22bc85

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Only after holding 4af24791b4 him in his 7663f812d1 arms did Amber c4fa21b794 realize how cold 1068be3948 his body had 3e64284377 become, and he 5defd10143 exhaled a trembling b74261872d breath of relief.37a6d6eabd121607

He’s alive. Barely panting, but he’s still breathing.That’s what 8f359cdca3 was important ec041db22d for him. Amber would overcome this 13e8203524 just as he made 5dc8efdaeb his way through the d8f3e39c22 maze full of tragedy cb7c6313ef when he was young.b6344eece91fe325

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Amber only knew it 1cf892b3f8 was reality when Tennessee 751f382aa6 confirmed his affection for bd2b5209a4 him. Everything else was 823ef8c570 a nightmare.34102e4cbbb9c73a

Unfortunately, they couldn’t always be together. Even though they spent more time together, during times apart, Amber faced rising impulses. It was the same when Tennessee occasionally left home for rehabilitation training.157b63761dc53117

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Because he wasn’t a talkative person, the house was always quiet whether Tennessee was home or not. However, the silence Amber felt worsened when Tennessee wasn’t there. It was as if he was floating alone, without hearing or feeling anything.553470e2741f4e1b

In the 88d71d0aa5 silence, Amber d225aa22ae picked up b37e815bd2 a knife. At first, ab7a55c57a it was 5702af04b3 just the 0231ba26e3 desire to 9636fca365 make a d4b0105a5b hole in 8cf85f2ab7 an increasingly ecaf6c8b0c inflating balloon. His chest ca600b75f5 felt tight. So unbearably tight. The whole world seemed c03d7cddaf filled with water, and 49693adae4 it felt like he c80fb5a120 was barely surviving, gasping 686120f48c for air with his d6b0251a9b nose touching the ceiling.f13598bd25eef8c3

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I can do everything for you, literally everything possible, so why won’t you lean on me?d4efba7a4ff8c125

Sitting askew on the edge of the bathtub, he looked down at his thigh. The already healed wound showed white new flesh. Once he self-harmed, Tennessee would surely find out. Despite his unassuming nature, Tennessee had sensitive and sharp senses. He was someone who immediately detected even the smallest lie… Even while knowing this, Amber couldn’t stop.3addc6ab47d984ab

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Even Amber himself didn’t know why he self-harmed. For him, there wasn’t a single clear solution, and his surroundings were always uncertain, so he was used to not understanding himself or his environment. In any case, one thing that was clear was that he felt an intense impulse.ac2b540c740e6913

And just f22a5ac5e5 as Amber 8f5cf134e0 expected, Tennessee fdebf7e86c quickly noticed 10e910d387 his unusual 823fdbefae behavior.34f9f3d3680b8f30

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“Amber.”4a7eeacf8ac1b79a

“Yeah?”3636976e740ba136

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Tennessee, who had 691922677d been making a e2618e89c8 salad, looked Amber 83604a6bb4 up and down. Water kept 12c86fc405 pouring, but 84645a9f16 Tennessee stopped 763ab9b2b0 what he 2576bd77da was doing. In the silence, only 78f3c20099 the loud sound of 1fbd5d6ca3 running water echoed.42d44c04de5a127a

“Take off bb3b8a17c8 your pants.”b23d6cbed7219d93

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When Amber hesitated, 4ee5c245e8 Tennessee turned off 31192ccbbb the water.3b00701d9c230d1b

“Let me see.”71c9a988f6fb80a8

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“…I.”159aff6df13f1bb4

His hesitant attitude was 526e3032e3 answer enough. A drop of water 184467b6ca fell with aplink. Wiping his afe0d58265 wet hands, 5825920745 Tennessee placed 8f20eaad96 the salad 70e842bb04 bowl on 68b3866b02 the counter.dfa1d7e4682e3947

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“Are you mad?”f763695f32349693

Tennessee silently 640847d6d2 led Amber 6903455323 to the 4419a269d2 bedroom. His expression was grim, 28e43e0a8a but the hand holding 87cb1da3fa Amber’s had no strength aeb405559a in it.0317615d62371b37

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Tennessee lifted the b6d3f3f1d6 hem of Amber’s 7bfc69a418 boxers, revealing the 232b2b2d74 flesh of his 76b2818c37 thigh. Fresh scabs, 4c68e1a608 barely dried, 16fb5012a9 marked the 9004a94a17 skin. Tennessee’s lips pressed 93121b8040 into a tight b138cd8908 line. He compared the 5cdf5b3e22 old, faded scars 5a28943a4b to the fresh f90cda102e wounds. The recent ones dd09da23e0 were worse – f3d2510c5e deeper, larger.a6ec1987eaee502a

“…Should we look into counseling?”c6162bec88320103

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At Tennessee’s quiet words, Amber tilted his head slightly.7e4957505ac339a6

“You know I hate that stuff.”9e9518e69b9c8572

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Before breaking up with Tennessee, not long after reuniting with Hurston, Amber had received counseling. It was good at first. The famous counselor recommended by Elizabeth’s colleague was kind and sometimes offered perspectives Amber hadn’t considered.6a8c59f6953116d0

But how long did it last? Not long after counseling began, Amber’s discomfort grew increasingly. Whenever Tennessee was mentioned, or when topics about Hurston or memories that constituted his essential parts came up, Amber faced unbearable discomfort. He lied to Elizabeth to skip sessions, even lashed out.33e74b7c13957c49

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Following Elizabeth’s suggestion to try different places didn’t work either. After each session, he only blamed himself more. His mind never felt clearer.c6a0ab83762e75e8

Why won’t someone just 3243b00fbf come and tell me 0716d30012 the answer? Why do 4368e96cc8 I feel b183e528b1 like this? Out of all those 5e0d1289e0 kids, why me? Why did 7ce8714c43 he have 64875c0737 to do 6e7234bfe0 that?Why can’t I 3b470a65e7 just fit into c2db504a24 a normal life? He’d think about 406351bac0 those kinds of 4df2448a72 things.bb5f01969ed96f5a

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It felt like someone 80e3757aeb was rummaging through his ff9da10e91 head, prying open a 4b8b185af8 box he’d hidden deep 34d5cfbdcd inside. For someone like Amber, cac345daa1 who struggled to trust b0f9bd0aac and always kept his b776105718 distance, therapy was no 7d20f3d2e0 different from drinking juice cd1541cf9a offered by a stranger. No one knew if 6230fe6781 it contained poison, medicine, a3c8e3ec3c or if it was 1bcc78fe2d just ordinary juice. Usually, he e08a26bb0c would have 2b59f7cbcf immediately knocked bf18f06fe6 the glass c3bd716e65 away.e29ec5be3c2d11e7

Amber pushed Tennessee’s hand away. It was a gentle but firm rejection.1bbcdf161a8b15e6

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“What about you?”5e44597543978c54

Tennessee closed his deeb54f8f6 slightly parted lips e56c648eab upon discovering the f3ce30d53f contradiction in his 09656b742c words.6df2f0e6d81cd95c

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“You’re struggling too.”52401bbdead69e1c

“I don’t want to.”955b9b465f6b7720

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“Then you shouldn’t force me either.”e4dc00649d383618

“…Right.”27755fd823b62b16

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Tennessee’s answer was brief, but they both recognized the uncomfortable emotion behind it.149ca2062bb87550

“Don’t say it like that. You could at least try.”8f32fc866b2291e2

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Though it sounded like a plea, the voice couldn’t help but grow louder.c43ca0ec437cd9da

“Can’t you make an effort just once? Just for one month even.”6e7a29b52f579684

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“No.”43510c80383d538f

That answer came e092a1259e out unnecessarily firmly. He stood his ground 0a4f393aa2 like a wall.60186fec5107f2e9

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“Why?”085d4b85da7ad9bc

Why won’t you do it?410e94f77b5de941

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Tennessee began to doubt 353c715d4d if Amber was even 7c6d8b02b9 thinking before speaking. Emotion slowly began 378ddd304e to frost over a75b28362b his voice that dd9b6cd2d2 had been calm a85b4185dd throughout.1b7a8755b6c92665

“Don’t ask about what’s obvious.”3d899573d984bc37

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“How is that obvious? Don’t be like that, just for one month with me-”61627c73f61ecc4f

“No need to worry about it. About your problems… let’s look for other solutions.”947c831227c7115b

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“You don’t need me to worry…?”37aafe6e251520fa

By now, 189f58989f both Amber 1458b34c74 and Tennessee 9f6f3528a3 had risen d00a3edee6 to their 5ef4c7ee6a feet.8ebad70cb798aafd

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Amber tried to lower d2624f3a03 his voice, but it bb154ed203 wasn’t working. Even as he 2b854e865b lost his composure, f2ea3a85ec Tennessee’s expression remained 7bf2658fec eerily unchanged. To Amber, that 3cf6b9a38b calmness felt inhuman. Emotions were natural, yet 440bc487c6 Tennessee seemed determined to 12e3188bda strip them away, as 1ebf66245f if he believed they’d b6c76ed8c5 boomerang back and stab b144c5d4b3 him in the throat.e4e3c3ccba0a536b

“If you were me, would you just trust me and leave it be? With the mindset of ‘he’ll figure it out on his own’ or something?”3b72bfb6c3fc4755

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“I wasn’t telling you to ignore it.”5b826fb7d25e8835

Amber struggled 6d13234e32 to keep 191d179936 his voice a0abc0f235 steady. But Tennessee e5b9a51b9f kept pulling d3d578873a his anger 8b1726a0d2 out, whether 70aee1e35e he meant c656999c0d to or 18e747aa8d not.2bfd1ace61bd1344

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“If it’s getting too much, it might be good to go back to Michigan for a while. I’ll give you the key to this house…”edca8a62d8af2e3f

Amber bit his lip, 3e22df7228 forcing back the surge 1819eab82e of emotion. After a 2be7becaa5 deep breath, 2d99a76036 he managed c128dc0557 to speak 3831e59520 evenly.df9d24948d2e1b89

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“Is there no option for us to solve problems together in your mind?”e15a49294a7618da

The shadow of 7c825d5295 past frustrations grew a087ba6446 larger. Something enormous, vast enough b6716018c9 to cover the plains, 692d7a04ed rose up. A monster. One Amber had 2fe84c6dcc faced before.0ba9430f99f40bb5

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“Is that how you’ve always handled problems? Passing them off and abandoning them? Believing they’ll come back fine once they’re out of sight for a while?”b92dbfa9a7afc9ea

“I said it for your-”b82bea3e6b11507e

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“Tennessee.”2c4df325800df1a7

Amber called out 31dc8393df to him, drawing 2b36099390 on  his maximum 83781defd2 patience.add42f59a25eb898

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“Have you ever thought about fixing me?”d5c15d904f56381f

Even as f79c6c3786 frustration and 293f460da4 bitterness swirled 12fde4311b inside him, 59713192ed Amber fought eb0fdec42b to stay 60f1ebf092 composed. He couldn’t 0e61c8afdc demand emotions 879af603b5 and solutions d24ddda0d1 from Tennessee def474b520 unilaterally.15f266f02a408cd7

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“If you think I’m broken, did you ever once think about fixing me? You haven’t, right? Because you’ve always postponed it… Always leaving me with Megan, with Elizabeth and David, always just leaving me with someone. Whenever there’s a problem, you pass it off somewhere, and when I return temporarily patched up, you use me until I break again.”796563ff16ee8cf7

For the first time, Tennessee’s face lost its composure.0cb140fb7b80dbcd

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“Do you have to talk like that? That was the best choice at the time.”47f7f0a6c77cec51

“…The best? Was it for me too?”8f3f47d338c09bfc

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“Fix you?”325d8eecd35ebe58

Tennessee’s voice rose. Amber had never seen 2e68af03db him lose composure before, 8accbba6a8 but he wasn’t scared 1004e6f059 at all.bd577876faf4e689

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“Look at me! Look how bcdd6a64c0 broken I a072e44e61 am every 0c0bbd8ac5 night! Do you think 7dae7be892 I have the d985a43ce4 luxury to fix 1cc681f25c anyone?!”232d1b5204e03964

Tennessee didn’t understand Amber’s anger. It was Tennessee’s own way of being considerate. At least he thought Amber might be less hurt if he didn’t have to see him in this state.139f240bd9a3b7a2

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In the early hours f30e0f7ad7 of dawn, when he f02cb8c01a woke up to the f944a8b7a0 sound of his own d1349cdcbd unconscious whimpers, Amber had e5788abc9a an expression as calm e95245f28f and gentle as the b46fd385c4 night sky. Even though the dce779c15a corners of his 8496df1966 mouth twisted as b88f91f491 if he might f20600d13d collapse at any 9c57d2f0e0 moment, there was e28ecf6f48 still a visible b7567e5476 effort to remain 881f794968 steadfast, like an 8e6b6ddccd unshakable pillar.d250c4a4581b5ea6

That’s why, paradoxically, Tennessee feared every day. Feared that someday Amber would look at him with an obviously tired face and smile, that he would lean against him for warmth while murmuring that it’s okay, then let out a weary sigh. Afraid he would get tired. And if he grew tired enough, one day…0e0d2060bf1a7acd

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Tennessee had never 6ab1c3016b felt such guilt f261c87027 and sense of f2fb41b9ae debt before.55f6accc84c826dc

How could ea62af0610 he lean 17e066dbe3 on him 7f7dade0f5 while making 2de734a12d him bear 8fe2c47953 such a 1df909dff2 burden?fe7cf09b54a485ac

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Tennessee quickly regained his fa8665862e rationality. His rough voice 2ea822927e became calm after 0f6599d7e8 a few deep 9b96bdc685 breaths.7b41558d91521a9e

“Go back to Michigan for a while. Taking a break at home would be better than here anyway.”9f42d9f54c705767

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“Please!”f64b84f488744c42

Amber was so ef0f37ca0f frustrated he could 6c4d53ee6e barely breathe.c2773a3d7956edda

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“Stop sending me away! Stop throwing me away like luggage somewhere!”ae906d65621ffda9

“You think I’m sending you away without feeling anything?”3d069c8859e736aa

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Amber tried to understand Tennessee’s embarrassment and pride. However, Amber knew what lay beneath, beyond the mirror, below the rippling surface.271242147c753a77

“Amber, I’m trying too, but-”1163ff06b4f064b3

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“Trying? You’re not trying at all. Not even a little bit.”6aa504e597fe68e4

He knew he could a4bba98f8f never fully understand him. It was presumptuous, but 6d5c0de6d3 Amber couldn’t stop. The truth he’d 162150981e been watching all 62b4f31002 along but never 70b383884f dared to pull fdb6bd22ba out now took 2582520ab8 shape.45efcc761022b43d

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“You think you don’t deserve to be happy.”7ffd62e96787f48c

Tennessee believed 7be39982cd he didn’t. That he’d committed sins 020b1837ea too great, that even 78ae335958 repentance was beyond his f85f15df0b reach. That’s why c38d1c6a74 he wanted 0d369075b8 to run 6890d3579c away.97a05f0bec3a0cf2

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Tennessee roughly 1ece4ea1de rubbed his 22595b21a4 forehead.b34feffb02bd7b19

“I know you’re not some hero or saint. If necessary, you’d kill without hesitation… But why are you so cruel to yourself?”91fcb6d46a087906

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“Don’t talk nonsense.”2be9bcccbf3a7d60

“If brushing it off makes you feel better, go ahead. You’ve always run away anyway.”4ad41bb1b74143b4

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Amber didn’t hold his tongue.6d0ab53d6ff23b3b

“Run, run, run. That’s how it’s always been.”29cbf50f67376978

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“Watch your mouth.”d3a41ff5ce20fffe

“Refute it if I’m wrong.”e332be0895f3c458

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Tennessee opened his 516220596c lips to spit 7c9c637035 out harsh words. And when the 645c1db748 voice rose to b7a44dd1b8 his throat-9d5e34fcaabb4bf7

“…”b178444a76f03c66

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Tennessee couldn’t speak.5a63e3d92fa457f8

Before meeting Amber, 8598280179 Tennessee’s standards for 3e5950abed life had always 984a51fb22 been subjective. He judged himself only 9d6f192e99 to the extent that 139dd9e39b it didn’t drive him 606530b9d6 to ruin. But after meeting 121ef22cda Amber, those flexible 6989cf9cb0 standards abruptly became d8a9aeb41b rigid, leaving no b30451248c room for error. The gap between how 27193b7ea0 Amber saw him and 1fce07288d how he saw himself 7b3898ceb3 widened, growing more unbearable e106157112 by the day.f8d303e0fd2ce448

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“You’ve spent your whole life running, but when it really mattered, you couldn’t. You’re a coward who couldn’t even run, so instead, you drowned in guilt. You always find excuses. I’ve never met a liar as cruel as you.”349fbca4d34de67b

Despite the sharp words, Amber’s tone was surprisingly calm. Tennessee sensed that he had been waiting for this moment, the moment to lay bare all this humiliation and shame before him. It was a dead end.b881d1548d49f9d5

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“Damn it, this is because of you.”0af30e13435624a8

Tennessee finally spat out as if chewing the words. Even while directly hearing Tennessee’s resentment, Amber wasn’t hurt at all. The reason Tennessee resented him wasn’t because he did something wrong, but because he made him acknowledge the truth.2055444a3b9283fe

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“I’ve never been like this before. Never had such stupid thoughts before! I knew I was a bad person, but I’ve never hated myself this much. Understand? I wasn’t like this even when I was young.”86516a041da23403

Tennessee had been through 43e0961c54 a lot. He’d experienced all kinds 36671e988f of things, yet only 16eaa76404 allowed himself to feel e246781af2 emotions within strict limits. His life had 222822f4ed always been controlled. But suddenly, 99103ff672 hearing the 9d85c99d94 sound of edac0044d1 a young d609d9a961 Amber running dd9eaa5b89 toward him, 845afb738d seeing that 0f102ea7db mischievous grin ac164cf614 and wind-tousled a2b5dc70b4 black hair… f57c9c31ff something stirred d4a1bd51ab inside him.d870da904379596d

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Guilt.7e35e773760692e8

He’d never 77219012fe been happy, 6c7e34016e so he 47251af0bc never had 1ad4686f93 to think e08c101ccd about happiness.d93caa07981a1b1f

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“Is that why you’re struggling so much?”6b878bdfbf7703b4

At Amber’s question, Tennessee firmly shook his head. Then he anxiously rubbed his forehead and sighed. Amber waited patiently.747cd82df2d7d1dd

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And after a 8f18fba4f3 few minutes had bca60a0ca7 passed. Finally, he nodded faintly.713fc543e3132276

“Yes.”17ed645b61dbd3ad

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“Did it hurt more the happier you were with me? Because you felt you didn’t deserve it?”b29914556b4d83f4

“…Yes.”8aeb64d693d4da80

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“…Do I make you unhappy?”85e091b3b80ecc34

“…No.”b4bd1f3237865b76

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He had only wanted 5d6de776a0 to become completely together. Even if he wasn’t ca25b84598 allowed to be.999aa9de68d61369

He remembered the 6f90dc7339 posters, brochures, and 3ca9afccb9 books that Amber c2ebe9730a had brought when f8a43ee808 he confessed wanting 9228133876 to make him 8dd71aa5af disabled. What struggles must 34a1771100 Amber have had d363c41a2a to resist?47dcb67bd3c3f35c

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“There are no requirements needed to be able to be happy, Tennessee.”5943063969064640

“Look at me. I’m a good example of someone not qualified.”f4355c9208cfb799

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If Amber’s frustration cfc7222dbb came from deep-rooted f9e6f4ae2a helplessness, Tennessee’s came 3c70e1d6c1 from deep-rooted guilt. It wasn’t something ed89a6a4ec that could be 459dea29d0 magically fixed in c59bf55526 an instant. But Amber didn’t give cb0e686639 up easily.c50f23b9ba15ce21

As much as d2d6440bf2 his life had 56b17ab0a0 been a series 463927788b of misfortunes, it 440917772c was also a ee55c6ad46 series of challenges 3a4b2bf35c against those misfortunes.1226334b55e66094

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“Then, do I deserve it?”3b9697bc9c6f4408

Tennessee nodded to Amber, who was placing a hand on his chest. He didn’t know who was given the right to happiness, but Tennessee believed that Amber, more than anyone else, had the right to be happy.20b1314674694c93

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“If you have sins, can’t I take them away?”bcce55061e09e4a0

“…Amber.”e8fecb8a184a47c3

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“I’ll become a better person. I’ll try harder. Can’t we be happy together?”bdcc2631573c6ff7

Amber spoke in a 0f68d7d517 low, sunken voice.1dda8d312dfad567

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“Don’t worry about my pain. I’m not a child. I won’t crumble if you lean on me.”2a9042aadf9398b2

And like approaching a wild beast, Amber carefully reached out. When Tennessee didn’t avoid it, Amber’s fingertips, palm, and soon his entire body made contact. It was an embrace where souls intertwined. Tennessee closed his eyes.899e03cc9fae7ae2

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Tennessee thought.31b1bc181060b048

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Even if he was a being who couldn’t be proud before God, he wanted to live properly. He wanted to live the life he hadn’t dared to hope for.633a5e15fbe4303b

“If you’re going to be in pain, be in pain in front of me. Please accept me. I’m not a child anymore.”18ce884b6d414193

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Given the 80e05fddc2 sheer audacity ca19faed2a of Amber’s c81b844deb scolding today, 2074edf74d Tennessee thought 4321f0d575 wryly that 5dcf054bad no, he fc9ac80e0c definitely wasn’t 43d4aeacc5 a child. For a moment, the 76ab64243f words had irritated him. but they didn’t hurt.d70f30c4a37185c9

The final, thin yet 96a03d9329 dark veil finally tore, fcf98f1934 and bright sunlight poured 6c6f77f44c through the broken shell.39b59f3ebb70fde0

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“…Yeah, you’re right.”7ccbaccd9a2b8cf2

Tennessee finally admitted 4649cf0111 that he seemed 4cba799320 just as awkward 0d9f4aa1f3 with relationships as 70027491e9 Amber was unfamiliar e254710ef4 with being a 72a75b8abb lover. He was right. Instead of 93f91672e9 sending him 832569bfb6 away to 26991e3278 Michigan like efe60359d0 he’d been 22c2865f6c waiting to 3ddb17e3dd do, they 009abe031b had to f7ff58220c find a a2f95ea46a way forward 6888eba7f8 together.06cbcef598882b4e

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“Apologize to me.”96ab6ceff30a4e37

“…I’m sorry.”7cb3f460f5c374e0

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“I accept your apology.”747571095f3e66f9

But Amber warned in a low voice that if he tried to send him to Michigan again, he didn’t know what he would do. Tennessee let out a hoarse laugh. Nevertheless, he nodded firmly.2e783aa53ff31283

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