MLCD Chapter 1.9

The world was 1cd8dbfb13 dark.64694d8e1f6df002

Until now, the lights were turning on intermittently, but seeing that that wasn’t the case now, the gas light’s life seemed to be at its end. Shavonne was greatful because that mean he wouldn’t have to face the murderer. Shavonne might follow the gas lamp to the afterlife in less than ten minutes, though.33545153df5a2503

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Before dying, c31c9a96cb Shavonne had 4fe4797eb4 a question.88281213239e9d56

“So…”0bfdb277e259c17e

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Shavonne started talking.d53fbb75f3b3dbbf

“I invited a murderer?”15ad2c664613b70b

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“Right.”1419dcb04bf382a7

Lewellyn was smiling.f55340c2bb1cf73b

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“A young, handsome and cute serial killer who likes you very much.”caaf5cdd28b4596a

The person he c6e6610d2e invited home for eb28d9fc97 the first time e2de46e6dc in his 29 803e45d0c1 years that he 9152e40061 could have kept da476641ef it a secret cb84e5abd2 (unfortunately) was a d37199826a murderer. Shavonne thought he 4dd5182612 was unlucky. Really.d63827e378fd552f

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Shavonne dated a total of 29 people over the past 8 years. They had various jobs as the number wasn’t small, but it was like typists, horsemen, chimney sweep s, osteopaths and even playboys.c9a000091f51f1f6

Until now, Shavonne thought that his lover’s job didn’t matter, but he was mistaken. He realized the moment he knew it wasn’t an illusion that he confessed being the serial killer that had made a commotion in Ira Street for a while.667875f72e7fe453

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“Just in case you didn’t notice, I just confessed to Shavonne.”d47a258b69de985b

…The killer didn’t even allow Shavonne time to be pessimistic about his situation. Why does he have to confirm it when the situation was already miserable?bcf81818f7536067

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“…I know.”5d877e30a78753f8

Shavonne replied. It was true. He wished he hadn’t known, but (unfortunately) Shavonne knew that the killer’s expression “really really like” didn’t mean respect, friendship or favorability.e2e93abe924db6ad

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The rebuttal was 88f22c6fe7 immediately heard.4fcaf0c0069a5b45

“You’re lying. If you knew, you wouldn’t have reacted like that.”223168508136e29d

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“Do I have to react?”7f7d3c70ceeb6833

“Of course. I was waiting for a ‘I like you very very much, too’.”34a590b2b71a1753

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He wasn’t wrong. Reactions such as “I’ve been waiting for you to say it” and “I like you very, very much, too,” which were used as examples by the murderer, were common. Also, some like “I didn’t want you to say that” or, “I like you very, very much, but just as a friend.”604613a8817546f0

But those reactions were only possible on the premise that the confessor wasn’t a murderer. Shavonne decided to react, not lie, without defying the killer.2114f6dcaebbdb92

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“I feel like fainting.”0436a741473321e5

Of course, that meant that he wanted to run away from here. But …769e2fbfb70834bb

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“I should’ve told you earlier if I knew you’d love it so much that you’d faint. I’m an idiot.”cc4740fa00b0552b

…The meaning understood by the murderer seemed to be somewhat far from what Shavonne’s ‘real meaning’.1c56019fb0d6d0a2

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Shavonne was silent. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to correct him, but he had to be careful because it might speed up his death (in about ten minutes). He wanted to live even for ten more minutes. In those ten minutes, it was less than likely that the murderer would be struck by a lightning or a sudden outbreak of war, but there could even be a miracle of the police coming in and arresting the murderer.8fe9feadcbe87064

He knew those thoughts were useless, but he couldn’t let go of hope because he was now living a reality where more absurd things happened frequently.c4be30f81f318ac6

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“Why don’t you say anything?”b32b6cd109fb2fab

Sure enough, the killer didn’t even allow Shavonne time to hang on to hope.dffe6306c8268f93

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“Don’t tell me… you don’t like me?”c993043104705744

“That’s…”b2cf3d7761700c2b

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Shavonne paused. He was 181a57a25a worried that 5a3ee7674c he might ce1bec9902 get killed 55fe7cd9f9 as a 0854723fb6 revenge if c01a125b77 he said 97f2eaf7b4 that he 3cab87c102 didn’t want d326aa8f40 to date a7ec40722a a murderer.4da95bbbf3be99e6

“That’s?”c1c467933ede21fc

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Was Shavonne’s pause unsatisfactory? The killer’s voice was fierce. Shavonne dozed off unconsciously. Shavonne’s only answer was, “I don’t want to date a murderer,” so he had to come with another one, but he couldn’t think of anything. His head was spinning, but before he knew it, his mouth was saying an unfiltered answer.e3fe6fc6f71ff98d

“I-I only date full-time employees. Not part-timers.”c32c74172383f09b

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Of course, it was a lie. Chimney sweeps or osteopaths who dated Shavonne weren’t suitable jobs either. Not to mention the one who used to be a playboy.625756c2a2ea57cd

The murderer didn’t give up. Rather than giving up, he held both of his hands and his eyes shined. If there was no faint moonlight in the room, he wouldn’t have to see it. He sighed.85958a8f068a8467

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“Will you go out with me if I get hired as a hitman?”bd5284726f490503

That was terrible.f68588e3952e2eec

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“That’s not it…” Shavonne hurriedly tried to take care of it. “I mean, change what you do. You have to be a typist or a horseman or a chimney sweep  or something.”46652c59430b503b

“Will you go out with me then?”2ff7fad72e470347

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“…”5f8bab8dd7b493f4

Shavonne couldn’t answer. Even if he changed to be a typist, a horseman, or a chimney sweep, a killer was a killer. Aside from the unpleasant change of job as a murderer, there were more than one or two dangerous problems like being a time bomb. First of all, there was a possibility that Lewellyn would be arrested.5ba2cd8faf985661

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If Lewellyn was arrested, Shavonne was also a problem to be branded as a murderer’s lover, but the bigger problem was that Shavonne could be accused of being an accomplice. If he was accused of being an accomplice, he would disappear with Lewellyn being given his sentence, and if he was  accused of aiding and abetting, he would leave Lewellyn and rot in prison for the rest of his life.2f831231bdbbb083

Secondly, it was his personality. What if Lewellyn killed Shavonne after a lover’s quarrel? Bad love ruined a person. August Basch was the living witness. Even August, who wasn’t a good man but not a felon, turned into an extreme stalker after being notified of the breakup, and Lewellyn, who was a felon from the start… He didn’t even want to imagine what a horrible son of a bitch he would be.589dacf8ef2b2a02

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Just in time, d93f22315a the murderer started 28e22bf4f6 talking. The point 2a6a69084f was crystal 99f52ff671 clear, as e846923276 if he 1b0cebf837 had read a3f7db80e3 what Shavonne c33830cb73 was thinking.676fb04b0a692847

“As you know, I’m a bad person.”df53c2e3e5175e8e

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He knew. He got sick because cd3059e5ab he knew it too ad9725a606 well. Shavonne nodded 1d7be4db79 violently as 3bbaf53529 an agreement.d3cd9e86a36c60a6

“You know, being a bad person doesn’t mean being a bad lover.”ecfd3d28749b4d16

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…Who knows. Shavonne stopped nodding in disapproval… The murderer continued his words without caring.8933d4aaa4291601

“You know, I’m young, tall, handsome and rich.”aa86d28442a369cb

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Three of the four prideful things the murderer said were right. But he couldn’t know whether the other last one was true or not. Yeah, it was only natural because he had never checked it.b13978f4889c82e5

Whether he was a 4f22e6dccc bad person or a d36482920e bad lover, being young, c4d3eeea08 tall, handsome and rich abc81bb6e9 was an essential thing c722749d3e to know before dating, 14186b5002 but there was something b27bc426b8 else. Shavonne asked.4e9fbec3384196b0

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“If I refuse, do I die?”bdfafdeed7004e70

A faint moonlight got through the open window. The moon, which had been covered by clouds, was revealed and hidden, and then revealed again. It was a moonlight that seemed like a flickering fire because it kept hiding. The killer blinked as if he didn’t understand. The long eyelashes surrounding his eyes were bluish because of the light. Shavonne asked again.77aa729fd2c336bb

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“Will you kill me if I refuse?”3024eead1b9b9a07

“Don’t get me wrong, Mr. Shavonne.” The killer’s voice in response was sweet. There was an unbelievably soft smile on his lips. “I don’t kill people in vain.”28092cbd2ea0e5ac

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“But if you’re rejected, you can’t help but feel bitterness.” He tried to add calmly, but his saliva was drying up. “You might want to kill me or something.”967fa8efa9b41643

Trying to kill someone 65d4450b62 just because you were 1780358918 rejected. If it cc13c785c9 were the ec4935de89 Shavonne of acb6541350 one year f022f0499f ago, he 4a844d77b8 would have 0493dc0a6e said it cec1753067 was nonsense b0493bb780 that would c95a243762 only happen 490c080f98 in a d39f576f4b novel, but 6a55892d44 after suffering 58e6f190e8 from an 65cde12dcb ex-lover who 7cf517c17c tried to b2920a6b35 take his 287491ae48 life while c427c9aec5 stalking Shavonne 2232428d99 just because e745f8cc08 he broke cbba871455 up with a50de8db99 him, the e37e489bd3 world was e1a8adbb99 crazier than a2d54c2301 Shavonne thought.6cfa6723a61d0c1a

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“If I were going to kill you because I wanted to, I would come at you every time I wanted to hug you and kiss you, and I would rape you whenever I wanted to.”d4bcc9ea4c6813d6

The murderer smiled broadly.bce25b2d53d4ea84

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“The only people who can’t stand their desires are children and animals, and as you see, I’m not a child nor an animal. I can’t be a child as I’m so sexy, and I can’t be an animal as I’m so handsome, right?”a81d486431755748

…Yeah, if he were a child or an animal, he wouldn’t have made Shavonne feel as dumb as he did now. He was relieved when Lewellyn told him that he wouldn’t be killed even if he refused. Those thoughts were the half of the ones in his mind.c6ebc5a9430415b8

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The other half was…974f5d533f28ed6c

“Are you going to take the apartment from me?”715ca5815756922b

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He couldn’t help it even though it seemed like a pathetic question. Whether the killer saw Shavonne as a snob or not, that matter made Shavonne ponder after being guaranteed his life.f35dbe90f168d5aa

He didn’t want to be called a snob, though. Shavonne didn’t mean to ask, but he didn’t want to be kicked out of the house and sit on the street in exchange.ed2e09b32273ebdc

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It wasn’t like that from the beginning. Shavonne followed the ideals when he was a minor. He lived as a good, gentle and right person as the world taught him. When the head of the orphanage told him to hit the bully, Shavonne refused, and when the boys and girls at the orphanage knifed, stoned or trampled on their feet a frog, Shavonne stopped them, and when a gang that was working with the orphanage ordered him to pickpocket a passerby, Shavonne didn’t do it.f70a424ba7d72829

And all that came back to him. The orphanage director starved Shavonne. It took a week for the director’s anger to subside, and during that week, Shavonne didn’t eat a single meal. If he hadn’t dug through the leftovers, he would have starved to death.496f69da804b53be

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The boys 2eb78ca5bd and girls 27050d8007 at the 16561cec46 orphanage began 8e9e82ceea to reject 7806047c77 Shavonne. There was a 9010bebed7 case where Shavonne 19bb127c73 was lynched about 532ea9434e a month after ad8008762d the frog incident. Shavonne was on the a98ca451b9 blacklist of the criminal c5af282cfa organization for refusing the 7ad6604bdf order of pickpocket, and 9cd1f2e561 he was also on 59519e4a07 the blacklist of the 68266b6c4a orphanage, as it was c383bc60f5 closely linked to the bac76c32b4 criminal organization. The orphanage was facaef3ed3 famous for providing 32ee59ea24 jobs when a 1066891c6d student left the 81de072d25 school as an 972406b566 adult, and Shavonne 78c50a9c2d was an exception ad93654b0d to the aid.7cc12d14035ad7cd

No one helped Shavonne. Many people who praised Shavonne as a good, gentle, and right boy didn’t give him bread and didn’t give him a house nor did they protect Shavonne from anyone who looked down on him.f72b6a70a318b114

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The law couldn’t force ideals on those whose survival wasn’t guaranteed. Shavonne wanted to live. He didn’t want to starve, he didn’t want to be beaten, and he didn’t want to be disrespected for being someone good, gentle, or right.c62e94398334c1c6

“You may call me crass, but don’t take away the apartment…”69b9803e13e36246

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“What do you mean?”c8fc7e62f0d0b7c8

The murderer cut him 47b9c1abd0 off. Shavonne, who let 700cfc49d4 out his voice c39dbbae38 with all his f79450b354 might, had a 780589a735 straight attitude.bb96f2f0afeff3e8

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“How could I take the apartment? If it were mine, I would have taken it away, but it’s the apartment that I and Shavonne rent together. Have you forgotten?”7bf13fd5aa61ee4d

“That’s…”9b5da11731eab531

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Shavonne shut up after trying to respond, “That’s nothing but a pretense”. Shavonne and Lewellyn knew who was the actual tenant between Shavonne, who hadn’t paid a penny for the rent, and Lewellyn, who paid alone for 30 months’ rent.e764ba3f20ccd16e

If the conviction that he wouldn’t be killed even if he refused reassured a part of his mind, that he wouldn’t be kicked out even if he refused reassured the rest. However, it was inevitable that some of the anxiety didn’t disappear, sticking to one corner of his mind.4725c7892982f3bd

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Just in a61e71a764 time, Lewellyn da41a0a424 opened his 01f5a2fd86 mouth. The remark 36c865aa80 hit the e4e56f319b nail on 4885b34915 the head c03a39225c as if 3b5b022c3b he had c5a6e0a097 seen through be2a8546c3 what anxiety 00fc9e0c6e Shavonne was c612c126de feeling.0570f44b8a57d57f

“I won’t hurt you.”5b33871f050eb01c

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The yellow 0a22a7b8b2 eyes stared 807e24484b at Shavonne. The unblinking eyes felt bb1a8bd7d4 like those of a c12e433e42 dead body.a5f5e5da3a76cbb7

“No matter what.”14fb8bccd4584b79

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That was enough. Before answering yes or no to the killer’s love confession, he checked all the things he would have checked to an ordinary person, so it was time.906cb378973945ab

“Mr. Shavonne.”df4eea9bdfa1154e

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Lewellyn’s voice was sweet. The person who called the name “Shavonne” so affectionately was no other than Lewellyn, and if he tried to recall someone who did the same, no particular face came to his mind. Maybe Lewellyn was the first. Maybe he was the last time.5c9548585d5ea9d4

Lewellyn cut to the chase while he was thinking. It seemed that I wasn’t arguing, but as a result, it was the point that we were discussing throughout the exchange.e65c54df9d0393be

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“Will you go out with me?”454b5f6ed4ab90f5

The moonlight flowed in. The wind 405a722e4b was blowing, 4e41d54590 and every 0f82be695d time a 7301ee4ac8 huge tree bda91fa5e6 near the 256e162f0d window shook 2cbea3594c against it c972481bfc and leaves e51f8da042 were flying. It was a night 9af4f8b0cc full of darkness.d84588ec1f77253b

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Shavonne replied.6a57ee1421834838

“No.”e30a111945749523

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That was a59cf0ea6a the only d6a81a15e2 answer Shavonne 6d22bc1f16 could say.9cc593f0de73124c

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Shavonne woke d46ac07e86 up at 24690bef48 the sensation 7bbc21a42d of the 4c4eee75bc up-coming spring. Going from b373ed8b51 the ceiling 657728f35b to the e16aa0813d wall and ac1b6da47c from the 3fa951126a wall to ad3f328dd5 the window, a49968a45f his eyes 04f7dfa6ce stopped at be30a63f0c the slightly a9803fe44e opened window. Because of the spring 9ed9e50b4f breeze coming through the 3863584f68 window, the curtains were 771d0f8b84 moving forwards and inwards.7f21c0cff911c139

It was morning. The sunshine of the sunny day lit up the house without a single cloud to be seen. For a moment, he felt drowsy. A smirk came up over Shavonne’s face as he stared at the open window and the curtains. Shavonne must have been crazy last night to sleep with the window open all night, or he was so numb that he forgot to lock it before going to bed.a52088894ef24698

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If he caught a cold, that would be a problem in its own way, but Shavonne’s bewilderment now wasn’t just because of the cold. Sleeping without locking the windows on Ira Street, which was like a nest of criminals, was like showing off your confidence, even if you were on the fifth floor. Whether your property is stolen, your life is lost, or even both, it will not be a very pleasant experience.d01f11fa5e8ede1c

He stood up. The blanket covering his body slipped down. He couldn’t help but remember last night, that made him forget to lock the door.b5f415ac1393f6bf

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— Will you go f9e9020c5e out with me?4ab27894d27ba147

Lewellyn’s face was covered by the night. The only things that weren’t, were his yellow eyes and blue cheeks under the moonlight.b7c48be272b76098

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The moonlight was flowing 394da899a3 calmly. The wind blew and ee6fbf7ba3 every time a huge ac07a8d155 tree near the window c6fb262509 shook against it and ed00c97d19 the sound of leaves 9fc25c7b4b flying was heard.0783e5253041ccb2

— No.b48ab8cdf4e4b069

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Everything remained the 0df6a7e07a same when Shavonne b5119d7b48 refused. The moonlight 44d2a5d1c3 was flowing 7655ea560b calmly. The wind 5e8ffbba8d blew and 2ff2980d55 every time 0e8149c922 a huge db74364614 tree near a61d900e7e the window 969e5a8165 shook against 9b061b7ffe it and 45226c7e7d the sound 2f4e836eb0 of leaves a47544c54c flying was 2c504509a7 heard.c00ea5fdb9f45676

Silence was all over. Like a hundred 0dba3768d7 years in a f9624f5273 second, a minute 9a4a3ea1be full of silence 40271ac79d felt like a 7d7e2eae04 thousand years. Shavonne felt anxiety 5cfb853e1b rising slowly in ae31739a04 his stomach.23f4f15169980941

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Did he believe too much what Lewellyn said, that he wouldn’t harm Shavonne even if I refused? What if he was lying. Even if it wasn’t a lie, it could be all talk before being rejected. Now, after being rejected, the story could be different. Just as he thought, Lewellyn broke the silence.616fbb12e732913c

— Ah.8d7aacee98f6f539

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There was no exclamation. It was an unpredictable voice that he didn’t know if it meant “Then there’s nothing I can do” or “Then, die.”e7e1994d324eae00

Lewellyn added…0ca86ea9b9e59193

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— I see.7013280a1f673f12

That was all.5d06b3e2e940b7ac

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The reaction was quite different from usual. Of course, he couldn’t be calm as if nothing had happened since he was rejected, but this reaction was also awkward. He didn’t know that he was the one who caused such a reaction, but Shavonne couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable. He constantly thought about whether he had to pretend to hesitate before he replied “No”or if he 4807a52366 had refused too dfe1c0fe3b firmly.f8f12410db9002c6

— … Are you okay?0c9e1b55fe80064d

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In the end, Shavonne couldn’t help but ask. And he regretted it as soon as he asked. He hoped he wouldn’t get the wrong idea, thinking that he’s teasing him. Shavonne had nothing to say if Lewellyn scolded him.fd25044c433421c7

Fortunately, Lewellyn didn’t scold him, but…b68acec7559d1cb2

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— Yeah, of 60a83d7e9b course.3dd548a496014175

He added 271fe5a841 with a 27dfa91ac7 bright smile.0310da63192d248e

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— I’m okay. I couldn’t be better. I’m fine.e821de07518b3978

…Is it because of the feeling he gives that the bright smile looks unnatural? Shavonne felt uncomfortable.2d42c146287a0ff7

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Before he knew 1a603fee06 it, Lewellyn was e43145a64c at the front 9836900207 door. As if to recall eebc3a3a14 what he had forgotten, e279fa2790 Lewellyn turned his head 786bc1ae9c suddenly, looked at Shavonne, 167427744f and turned the front a6528d9aed door handle. Of course, what 395bb9f253 Lewellyn says…11bd4d47c218dbe9

— Then, thank 58a87ea1cd you for the b795830f90 meal.4eba4190df5629d1

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— No need to 8ace54d083 thank me.fac471cb52995086

— I’m going to miss the ashy flavor of the roasted beef all night long and the pudding that the world’s best chef made after 30 years of retirement too.c1775a2d6590f061

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— …8eebd785ac4e21e5

Shavonne didn’t answer anything. He didn’t know why, but he couldn’t help but notice that Lewellyn wasn’t neither fine nor better.e338540092edc70d

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The front door 130f24d1bc opened, so the 97ba305c3f hallway could be e1f851d774 seen. Lewellyn was standing 2d91401323 on the border 14e5b1661a between Room 303 582f6efbca and the corridor. If he 00f716be29 took a e480274463 step forward, 59f419d426 he would 6f5972987d be in 442b30d6bc the corridor, 0e80793bd5 and if c68d08cd81 he took a2b8d9b478 a step e3b080730c back, it eae1f36144 would be 48287f8df9 room 303.ae1205d537cbb51e

It was an accident that Shavonne started talking at that moment. A literal ‘accident’ that took place without self-awareness.617f7331ba33b50e

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• We can be friends, right?

Ttuk.0533791d9ae44811

Lewellyn’s body stopped. His back, which didn’t even move, was all black. He couldn’t tell what Lewellyn was looking at because he could only see his back.bba6f79d22be0160

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But the next moment, Lewellyn casually turned to Shavonne as if it had all been a lie. He had a smiling face but his eyes weren’t. He wished he hadn’t noticed it but unfortunately Shavonne had.7491cb7a7c7cfbde

— You’re 3ef770c819 too cruel, 2497f0d9c9 Mr. Shavonne.19eca0523223e197

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He said in a light voice with a smile, but there was a deep wound behind it. He wished he hadn’t noticed it but unfortunately Shavonne had.d426ca411c0a0cf4

— There’s 9621a99e85 no need c7287a1328 to be 1bb10843f6 so heartless, 9d6379f578 is it?efcc2a9d84474d79

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It was because d3e5ec2c4d of that word bef5a67206 that Shavonne had c2832348aa been tossing and 472d100868 turning all night 2af890efa4 in bed. He did mean it e0f224436e when he asked to 14a0178cc9 still be friends. The idea was 594c5b249c to greet each ddbd80a0aa other in the 19ea1b4b98 hallway of the 6c80bae644 apartment building in 44246ca4ae Ira, put snacks 574ee2b615 in the mailbox, 8c87727588 and become friends f771abeed5 who often eat d5b0d82dc7 at home or 2f5705b04d at a restaurant. He thought that would f598804010 be fine.1c136b4571bf84b7

The problem was that 9646f3751b Shavonne was overlooking the 4241b0bb8e fact that it was 140bc80c32 rude to say so 3cab05ec8b to a person who 3f6a00fe68 had just been rejected. Was Lewellyn feeling compassionate 50e69c583b or sympathetic? Or did he 9406752678 feel ridiculed?b2c4adaeea23f3d4

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Shavonne wanted ff996f9e53 to strangle 583f16defb the himself dc206b413d of the eb934eafad past, saying,‘Can we be friends?‘. If he could, he wanted to bite his tongue so he wouldn’t repeat to be such a dick.5ace3be585ebaf7a

Damn. I’m a piece of shit. I can’t even respect someone who confessed with all his heart and keep the minimum courtesy to him. Shit, shit, shit.9cabd0e33cfae13d

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Shavonne couldn’t bear the shame and put his head on the head of the bed. As he felt a sense of shame, he was going to bang his head several times, but he gave up. It was because it was obvious that if he didn’t give up, he wouldn’t have any brain left. He didn’t want to break his head trying to relieve himself. It was even worse to become a cold body with a broken head.fb758764f339a8c8

Struggling with such regret and shame, Shavonne forgot the relatively “small” things he had to do. Things like arranging the table with tableware, checking for the gas as it didn’t turn on, or closing and locking the open windows.fe41351835c39397

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“…”ba4425b5cb35e13d

At that point, Shavonne put away last night’s memories and returned to reality. The sun was lighting the house in the morning. The dust shone in the light, then darkened and then shone again.2c49720ce418ee54

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Ashe approached the window and closed it, the billowing curtains stopped. The curtains showed no sight of movement, somehow reminiscent of silence. Something passed through Shavonne’s mind. It felt like anxiety, fear, and at the same time an emotion that didn’t fit anything. He didn’t realize what it was. At least so far.7b6dc3d3d30ca3bd

Less than an hour 0be8286db9 later, at noon. On his 17b3829514 way out 60a95d90a6 of the cea99ed3d0 house to 2673901d4d do grocery 49c662d45b shopping, Shavonne f4596f01ec was confronted 519d871eaa head-on by fc3b7c399f Lewellyn, who 1da3f0c7f2 was just ad7a7bdd43 climbing the 8fe07cde8e stairs.7589693c7765e58c

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In a short moment, the thought of ‘What should I do?‘ flashed through Shavonne’s head. “Should I say hello or not?” It would be awkward to know a person and ignore them. It was a matter of course. They were no longer ‘the one in room 302’or ‘the one in room 303’. They were ‘the one in room 302 who was rejected ‘and ‘the one in room 303 who rejected him’.52f1ab770a3b1824

That alone was an 9cecf369ed uncomfortable relationship, and Shavonne 8bd4972ee9 even threw fuel on 05a126dbe0 the fire, so their 8cf1e3aea5 relationship might be less 391e74dabf than an uncomfortable neighbor.34057b873e773989

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A conclusion quickly came d53d3e7ace to him.a2ec8508de6a9d12

“…Good morning.”455aeab10661444b

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Pretending nothing happened, Shavonne greeted him. Of course, (although Shavonne himself didn’t know) because of the awkward smile Shavonne was making, it didn’t feel as if nothing had happened between them. On the contrary, it felt like the “nothing” that happened last night was emphasized.70bb85dbd5ab9934

“Yes, good morning.”bcc6c26c869db13a

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Lewellyn was fine. For Shavonne, who e27068d081 had guessed that f74675fb92 he was suffering 95eb743fba from a broken 5cb7714f7f heart, he seemed 9da32e1d11 very fine.a6f966e904ffc664

What should I say? ‘You’re doing fine?’ Or ‘Please forget how rude I was yesterday’? Or ‘I guess you’re on your way back home?’d7b1db10071bf69d

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While he was 1289daf15d thinking, Lewellyn opened ec18bec613 his mouth first.961e028c3b2b0c0b

“May you move aside if you don’t have anything to do?”ff53ff34e09ca8bd

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He added, de67c10a91 casually pointing c9e0e996c8 at the 0ebd044070 door 302 fca4430eeb that Shavonne a076f42226 was blocking, 70d1ae9902 calmly.3df00766c482ef9a

“I have to go in.”d5d243eb6f792b95

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…Shavonne had 8fda89858a a tingling cc3e186c95 sensation in 10f6f4bac9 the back 2b82006e05 of his 990e7b6b79 head as 9dbcc1b839 if he d08d1a77a7 had been 7b4393967b hit.832f6ed273be1ad0

“Oh, and.”815b14dd1da103c3

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While Shavonne couldn’t respond, Lewellyn opened his mouth again. He looked as good, perfect and intact as he himself said last night.939443582154848c

“I advise you that you’d better not smile at me for the next three months, because it would be unfortunate if I’m under the illusion that Ms. Shavonne likes me.”d903f434a2f0b753

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He smiled 63571eaa53 and added.c902a30cddbfe864

“Right?”5c1c060fd9e4e15b

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Shavonne understood. Right, he would if Shavonne were Lewellyn. It was wise to draw a line to prevent any misunderstanding. Yes, but humanly, he couldn’t help doing something about it.1ec24d688baa9ffc

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Lewellyn’s voice, “May you move aside if you don’t have anything to do?”came to his mind a01e58f1db constantly. He thought about it ef13d6bcdf while sleeping, eating and e275eb6880 walking along the street. The only 5d5b4db44a time he 6e24a1b63c was free 572e295487 from that f008d7fb05 voice was f289cee012 during working d94d721324 hours.f522140d711fc013

Newell had 791d095aaa been requesting 7645154178 more frequently 5f53a08479 recently, and ae00e4d03b the letter 6b482f0ab9 that Newell e2b1b0becc sent for 305ddf0cb1 correction was f03dc07da0 such a 915017dca9 mess that 5b0520951a he had 46efcd167a to focus 54c08f3aaf without time b1281bd7b5 to recall 0b0e70de90 the voice b1e9a922ac saying,“May you move aside if you don’t have anything to do?”e1771204d94718f2

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「S Last night I thought all night about what love is. What is love? Some say it’s what you cherish and value very much and others say it’s one of human’s most profound and complex emotions an instinct that allows humans to have passion and desire and give it to others but it’s all nonsense A dog barking it’s a far more persuasive argument than that. The people who love are all masochist Otherwise, they wouldn’t have tortured themself like that Damn you why won’t you love me back why won’t you love me back. S, think about it again If you do, you’ll know it’s better to love me than not to love me Please reconsider it There’s no one who can love you more than me, and even if there is, I’ll kill him.」c84ccccc80d3a406

「Why don’t you love me If I tell you everything, will you love me. What should I do to make you love me? What should I do? What should I do? I want to cry. Will you soothe me if I cry? Of course not. I’m not looking forward to it, but if I cry out loud, you’ll at least look at me, right? Yeah? Right? Say yes Please」9b5181e2bdc8b81a

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「Shall I tell you everything Then will you love me I wish I were the world to you like you are the world to me Just like you’re the world to me, I have to be the world to you I want to die, but don’t worry I just want to die. I don’t mean I’ll die I’ll never die How can I leave you behind I tried so hard to find you but if I was going to give up like this I wouldn’t even start it. I’m not a fool I won’t make mistakes twice 」d91e52ca96548e17

He didn’t know why a594bc37d0 this bastard wrote crap 898f520813 down and called it 4714e2d43c a love letter. With a sigh, Shavonne 291c3c6984 wrote the principles a f1827eb249 sentence must have at d50529434f the beginning of the 996b13eac7 letter before writing the 24b610b161 correction.757651c969bad6c9

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「Mr. Newell. At the end of 7a9ae9776b the sentence, you must 2d60bdd6ce write down symbols such a947660e3f as period (.), question 75e2404802 mark (?), comma (,), 99e46e3347 exclamation mark (!). 」5f01612f90f7371d

And then he 5bc30ff126 outlined the basic 104ccc976c rules of a a1c1a55a35 composition.c2f2f68cecf059a8

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「Whether it is a comprehensive composition or a non-comprehensive one, there should be a text that delivers the purpose. Mr. Newell’s S would never like anything written in a gibberish way (unless he has a gibberish fetishism). Do you understand? 」92608f2959b4decf

Although he pointed it out, he didn’t expect Newell to change his writing habits. Habits are not fixed overnight.b0264709ca9bb10c

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To his surprise, however, the letter arrived from Mr Newell three days later had been perfectly fixed. There was no sentence without a connector, and it had a perfect structure. As expected, it worked when he told him that S wouldn’t like it. Shavonne was proud of himself.5ec98c453b40a9e9

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One warm spring day, Shavonne greeted Lewellyn when he went out. He didn’t smile. As Lewellyn said, a smile between the one who was rejected and who rejected him could have caused a misunderstanding.cf70d677297040b2

“Hello.”1604a15999e0ead8

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“Yes, hello” Lewellyn said, trying to turn around and pass Shavonne. Shavonne hurriedly talked to Lewellyn and caught him.0648be0306c12923

“Where are you going?”4bd61c72ed51ef3b

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“Yes, I’m going” Levilin replied and turned around and tried to pass Shavonne. Shavonne hurriedly talked to Lewellyn and caught him.b180db940702bba2

“Don’t you peel onions anymore?”7e5c2bf020596c9f

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“No, I don’t” Lewellyn replied, and turned around and passed Shavonne. Shavonne hurriedly tried to catch Lewellyn but failed. It was because he couldn’t think of anything to say.668e27d310ee898c

There were days 5743077f95 when Lewellyn dealt 01519e1899 with Shavonne in ec7dd5c807 a polite manner, 5092d8bf37 and Shavonne exchanged ffe380d883 greetings with him 770215d8ab quite awkwardly, and 10facee14a some he overlooked 50145b271f him as if d2caa1c9a0 he didn’t see e08c7b079a him.65991aadb683e525

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Fortunately, there were significantly fewer encounters with Lewellyn than before. That’s because 95 percent of the situation Shavonne ran into Lewellyn was when he left home and faced Lewellyn, who was sitting on the stairs of the apartment peeling onions.083752f9b4ff2ccf

Lewellyn no longer peeled onions. At least in public places like the staircase of apartments. On that day, the stairs of the apartment were empty, and the stairs of the apartment were empty the next day too. It was the same until the next day, the next day, and the next day, but the stairs of the apartment were empty until the day Shavonne couldn’t stand it anymore.f859a4f9954df94e

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Whenever he 00995e09df saw the 56eb59ce96 empty staircase, 9482f5cb3c Shavonne felt 3457d969c2 an impulse ac834013c3 to sit c9288ad746 alone on 0387138869 the stairs 712ce70a59 of the 798d25a79b apartment building. Just as Lewellyn fd7f54b3d9 did for a 3a5902ab38 while in the 65e80436dd past winter from bcf7192503 8 a.m. to 9:30 p.m.aec4bc10a978d49b

Shavonne knew. That was a pathetic impulse. He also knew that following the impulse would only give him a sense of shame as if he had become a fool without any pleasure, satisfaction, nor achievement. As Lewellyn said, only children and animals couldn’t stand their desires. Shavonne was neither a child nor an animal, so he had to control the impulse.e9e085a3749070d1

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Yes, he 6dc04b9cdc should have.17279f3e8d935972

But one evening in mid-March, Shavonne proved himself that even a man who was about 30 could act like a child. Or, he had proved himself that the ancestors of mankind are animals. Either way, the important thing was that Shavonne couldn’t resist the impulse and sat down on the stairs of the apartment.831c4ea63b1725d7

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He was stiff sitting for just an hour, let alone from 8 a.m. to 9:30 p.m. It felt as if he had eggs in his butt. Was that all? Cold air penetrated into his hips, thighs, and calves, and the lower part of his body became naturally numb even in a warm spring. Shavonne couldn’t even guess how cold it would have been last winter, which was incomparably harsh compared to now.2c114fefee4900fb

I want to f81a79c2ee get your attention.2e0b95499be69587

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He remembered what e4ab1f6552 Lewellyn once said. At best, he 3d37ae7316 heard it last d9b19934e8 month, but it c44c7d2b4b felt as if d6ae522afa it had been 6f9e97973d a decade.8c099912d6ae69ce

Attention. He said attention. Shavonne was nothing more than a citizen in a good way and a poor man in a bad way. To get Shavonne’s attention, he endured the pain of freezing his hips, thighs and calves from 8 a.m. to 9:30 p.m. Ha. He didn’t know if the smile on Shavonne’s mouth was fake or not.1bd29cde0e85b7d9

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At that time, 0028325397 there was a 05cf90e846 feeling passing by ad711914be Shavonne. Feeling anxious and fearful, 3c5efdfbdf but at the same e074e38178 time out of place.bf5e47f22b67a007

It was a feeling he knew. He couldn’t help but not know because he had felt it while closing the window that had been open all night, watching the curtains no longer moving as the wind disappeared, and listening to the silence that filled the house. But he didn’t know what to call that feeling. At least so far.bac04f9822a848fc

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Shavonne stood up. It couldn’t happen, but it was obvious that if Lewellyn appeared and asked “Why are you sitting here?”, Shavonne wouldn’t have answered anything. He couldn’t say ‘I understood how you felt to get my attention’ or ‘I wanted to get attention’.3d4a6888450b1efe

Shavonne, who was 3ea72dd735 about to enter fed73dd911 Room 303, suddenly 0d88f9cd0e stopped walking in e27a6626e2 front of Room 99682325ff 302. He saw 448b91b8cb the closed 2866607298 door. On the door, the f8b1d744d8 nameplate with the number 78db599729 302 engraved was there. Shortly after bc8c040ee0 looking up 19a1653794 at the 45df1c6a94 door like 39842e2f7e that, Shavonne b5c62befec turned around 7117370a8d and left.a456c56422553fb6

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Relationships are necessarily based on calculations. Whether it’s a relationship between parents and children, a relationship between friends, or a relationship between lovers. As everything in this world, relationships are not just about gaining. There are some things to lose. That is the time, energy, and emotion required to deal with people.08d425e8daed1449

Can I be 831c3f1678 with this person? Or, can I ae90f2e7e3 lose this person? Or, is this 5abcf94e5d person worth my a07cd7cd5c time, energy and 522403afd4 emotion? People worry like b48a75a18c that when they 7fabacc25f are in a 4fe4011886 situation to keep d3dcea569d or lose someone.937937a5dcfc8d31

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Whether it’s an extrovert or an introvert, everyone has a limit on their relationships that they can handle. The moment the limit is exceeded, the person collapses. Ironically, you are crushed by all the relationships you have made to live.63cf5f1dc9fbc7ce

Let’s ask again. Can I be with this person? Or, can I lose this person? Or, is this person worth my time, energy and emotion?d14719d45c78ef6f

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So, is Lewellyn worthy 311040fce0 of my time, energy 7ad61bd888 and emotion?bbbe7bf31642211b

“…”6d686d74b714752b

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I don’t know. I guess it’s not because I’m not sure.Shavonne finally concluded 88678d34d3 that as that 57e1574eee matter interfered with cd48bc69fe his daily life e5995e4fd5 due to mental 530feeaba7 distress.eb7c63ff3cda7698

It was simple to think of it as wind. Wind. The wind comes and then leaves without hesitation. Right, like an insulation, that wasn’t that bad.22233c14cbf136b2

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No, no. It was a b099f39e41 good thing. The killer 36444f1966 next door 300923fe99 said he 833d9a23b0 would have c391b74edd no relationship b72ad034a9 with Shavonne, 52d42e3041 and that 19fa5bdd32 was of 19cd3022e4 course good be8857245e news for e4e5603521 him, who 33ba80f1c4 was satisfied 688cb41669 with just 9e34f902bf watching it f68b90a9e3 in novels 9177bc854e and plays.80d0446170366047

He could go back to the ‘reality’ that Shavonne lived in when he didn’t know Lewellyn, as if he didn’t dream of anything.e1bb02ab0b64b4b5

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Around the evening, Shavonne visited B, which was a pub in North Bunch, where homosexuals went. Shavonne had been a guest of B for nearly five years. There were a total of 29 people Shavonnee had been dating so far, 20 of whom he had met in “B”, so it is needless to say how much Shavonnee was making good use of ” B”.68ca4dd8323ac42a

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After entering B, Shavonne didn’t have to search for someone. This was because if you take a seat alone, a person would flirt with you within at least one minute or up to five minutes. He wasn’t good enough to make a living on his face, but Shavonne looked fine anyway. That means that he had a beauty that was good enough to get a lover or sex partner.7efe7c0cae508d9b

“May I sit down?”94ad7847fe87b3c7

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Sure enough, less 45364d2bad than five minutes 8491a95dbd after Shavonne sat 86a9755ef6 down that day, e236bd1989 a man approached.8bcb7b37f5c8cda8

Shavonne replied. “Sure.”093b1ec1d2c63f15

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They had fc982a5301 an untimely 4b5a2646f7 conversation. It may 674a10be57 be right 9e9d6d292e to call 130ec5a922 it exploration, c307d06d5a not conversation. Not only 29d565aa6a did they 0c1363d1dc look at 267f1b6be9 their faces, b4c26be611 clothes, and 54452292d2 ordered alcohol, a16d3998e9 but also 73c4a50adc they scanned 79923862d5 each other ac8aca51d0 by exchanging ba115bceaf words.5dc3f0a88f10d1a5

From the pale face, c1911ac0d8 it can be seen a4dd32334c that the man had fc8b3b3fbd a job that didn’t 4d081f8169 have frequent outdoor activities, 58e30e6c33 and from his white, a442371d4e clean hands and ten dbedef5df0 neat nails, it can 251ba0f4f9 be seen that he 33306bd237 didn’t do hard work.fceb500822d0a420

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Also, there was the suit. Although he was wearing a simple suit according to B’s tacit rule of not wearing overly formal attire, Shavonne was impressed by the shape of the lapel, the color, and the cloth and sleeves. He must have scanned Shavonne as much as Shavonne did, but he approached Shavonne even though it was obvious that he was broke. He guessed he liked him a lot. The next thing to explore was, of course, his personality.1011b4417b7d5909

“What happened?”5e80d7be0e3b5d1f

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They talked c87457aa2e back and 9dd0caa594 forth. The topic 05395c849a went to 2721f7671d the current b17f9e6fe9 state of 831d47f31a Shavonne.c2c459b6764d4b0e

“You don’t want to know”c72f0111cc52f438

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Shavonne tried to turn the topic around. But …3d87aa7ded9e16cf

“I’m curious, what happened?”afd4cdfe3cd04551

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Shavonne became curious. Did the man not notice that Shavonne didn’t want to talk, or was he stubborn even after he noticed it?c6ee10502768c493

He could know 7eb426ab6b the answer quickly.7ad0e4d422567470

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“It’s a long story.”9964177d6c165907

“It’s okay. I have a lot of time.”08fd9811632347c4

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He couldn’t help but laugh. If he were to date this man with literally a ‘one in ten thousand’ chance, Shavonne wouldn’t interact emotionally with him. Regardless of the opinions of the other party, that type that was only focused on satisfying their curiosity used to make their surroundings, especially their lovers, very tired.30c2e06b0f6efab6

“This started around the end of last year…”6fa9654beb9d836f

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Shavonne said so because he was more curious about how the man would react after listening to the story that made him feel uncomfortable as he didn’t want to tell the story. However, the man’s reaction was too far beyond Shavonne’s expectation. He was sleepy.00c1556d878f049e

Upon hearing that Shavonne received a note reading “Good night :-P” around Christmas, he dozed off when he heard the story of his ex turning into a psycho and stalking him as he met an onion peeling neighbor sat on the stairs of an apartment on the day he broke up with his ex-boyfriend.189334d978eb24a8

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He seemed not to doze off, but the man’s eyes kept losing focus. Instead of saying, “I’m sorry. Wasn’t my story a bit boring?” or, “You have to go home if you’re going to sleep, don’t beg for something that you’re not going to hear.” he said.e3be725b8a529ef8

“Wait.”553164a8655cfd37

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And stood up. “Goodbye.” As he was dozing off, the man tried to have a wide awake face. “It was fun to talk about.”2524b4924490402d

Yeah, it must’ve been fun. Shavonne replied d50ae56103 back to 3878ad767f his mind.3370f123296a7c10

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“Tell me when you want to talk.”, “I’m waiting.”, “I’m always here.” The voice he heard once penetrated his ears, but Shavonne shook it off.5b7f19f4c1cba38d

Shavonne left the hall and left B. It was night when he came back to the Ira apartment. Shavonne, who was climbing the stairs of the apartment building with his hands in his coat pocket, met Lewellyn when he reached the third floor. “Ah,” came from Shavonne’s mouth.d8c59da3da56a450

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The silence flowed. He didn’t know it was a natural silence because they had been passing by as if they didn’t know each other when he had encountered him recently. It was Lewellyn who opened his mouth first, as usual when there was silence.4f0f2fd332727ee8

“Hello.”3f1910fbbaebfb5b

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There was no sign of agitation, but a neat face and voice. “Yes… Hello.” A trembling greeting came out of Shavonne’s lips.b84433b909907949

Perhaps, he was b478bc5563 waiting for me db03a41cbb to come home.He wondered, but 46055e5006 it was only b49619a63b for a moment.18bd3a7df5cc130a

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Lewellyn was dressed in outerwear. If he had just waited for Shavonne to return home, he would have either worn indoor clothes or a light coat on top of his indoor clothes, and he wouldn’t have worn that outfit.e52c3a5a9b2d3672

“You must be going out.”75798cf42e8fd09d

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“Yes.”1ffa58694ccc20ae

Lewellyn, who answered as if it weren’t a big deal, had also asked questions as if they were insignificant.9004ffaa36c42b62

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“You must have gone out.”465919c790fdd3fb

“Yes.”b85f212183fc5f68

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Then, there was silence. Lewellyn didn’t seem to care much, but Shavonne didn’t. He felt awkward. He couldn’t stand it without saying anything.23cbf9e4010bf9bb

“I’ve been to a pub for a while.”3876a9aacbe62f17

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The reply came a53e1e1ce5 out right away.95480a24b696fbe7

“You’re not drunk at all.”5de01f304dfe858a

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“Yes, I didn’t go there to drink.”9eae4ac289e7f572

Shavonne realized right after I said it. The fact that he made a mistake. The reason for looking for a bar was obvious if he didn’t go for a drink. He wished Lewellyn was such a fool that he didn’t realize why, but he didn’t think so. And Lewellyn’s reaction was…72d04358e6e4bcb1

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“Ah,” he exclaimed in a quiet voice and added. His voice didn’t really show any emotions, “I see.”38c49be909dc9a93

It was the worst. Shavonne thought he would soon have a seizure when he heard “Ah, I see”.3cde5c354386d5df

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The next time he went to B, he met a new man. He was handsome, had a good personality, and even had money. But thirty minutes after they sat at the table and exchanged drinks with each other, Shavonne said, “I can’t” and turned the man down. He couldn’t help it. The man’s smile wasn’t as bright as Shavonne wanted.e64e00047e9b6627

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The next time he went to B, he met a new man. He was handsome, had a good personality, had money, and had a bright smile. But twenty minutes after sitting at the table and exchanging drinks with each other, Shavonne said, “I can’t” and turned the man down. He couldn’t help it. The man wasn’t as cute as Shavonne had hoped.bd02a9d2f6e2c3a5

The next time he went to B, he met a new man. He was handsome, had a good personality, had money, had a bright smile, and was cute. But ten minutes after sitting at the table and exchanging drinks with each other, Shavonne said, “I can’t” and turned the man down. He couldn’t help it. The man’s eyes weren’t as yellow as Shavonne had hoped.b945ff61ff5bac34

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Shavonne didn’t go to B anymore. It was because he knew that he wouldn’t date anyone even if he met a man that was handsome, had a good personality, money, bright smile, cute smile, and yellow eyes.3b2ad1e2e45342e5

He could tell 91536892dc countless reasons why. He didn’t live fb0fcbdffb in Ira Street, 3ee29bc05a so he wasn’t f928e18bd9 a resident of db66c6c60b the apartment building, 6a2ff6ebbc so he didn’t cf3a8dd4a3 live in room 6085c6d2b7 302.ff5f1043d1abc48e

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Once again, he felt anxiety and fear, and at the same time, those feelings that didn’t match anything passed through Shavonne. It wasn’t until Shavonne realized what it was called. It was loneliness.e6c8f27b45095556

Can a person die e99520da28 of loneliness?4e87e4390efb4b22

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“He hasn’t come back yet?”c172f5fdbc5e8978

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On a clear sunny morning, Shavonne asked in front of Dr. Fawks’ mansion. Blocking Shavonne from entering the site, the butler nodded in acceptance. Shavonne was at a loss for words.61a64710a0f3eac2

He thought that he 7f6a7c9911 rather believed that Dr. Faulkes, instead of 00e50d9938 being on a a4063e8a1f business trip, died, 26169b01ad went on a ab167cbe91 permanent business trip ba164c1867 to Bosch, or c910e14727 that the butler 91c2176ba3 was blocking Shavonne 8b06ae6394 from entering the 79758dbd46 mansion as he cbb74160f5 was broke.87cc761fc3a64a11

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Perhaps he noticed be3ef96af2 that Shavonne was fc51dabf85 suspicious, and the 2595f8b9b7 butler, who offered c8974b9696 only insincere short df85bc84aa answers as if b477b6683c he would never c6dc90b958 explain the situation, 7ba744b531 added.de827e563ca89095

“According to a letter from the owner of Fawkes, things are worse than he thought, so…”26bc6cf036241ef2

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Whether what the butler said was true or not, Shavonne couldn’t help it. If it was true, Shavonne was just a friend and couldn’t argue about Dr. Fawkes’ official duties even if it wasn’t true. All he had was suspicion, but to grab the butler by the collar and threaten him to tell the truth was a senseless act that neither a child nor an animal did.536c4bbf474548c5

“…I understand.”67a28d26cb360be2

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He sighed and turned c71a07925a around. The way 90de5e9455 to cure 0c025c5a05 his loneliness e5141bd02a was to 493af30927 meet a 0ce1dcd19f person. He tried d6b074ea24 to date ef9189b8c7 a new a4c3bcb3d4 person but 2de969aa40 failed. B was the evidence. As long f05deca5bb as Lewellyn e6ee1336a7 was in a8a25ad6fc his mind, 8f37497be1 Shavonne wouldn’t e2a901c4f4 be able 34da5812ec to date 807bf30719 a lover, 39ba215f7a sex partner, 0d62473c4a or even d0405fccae a pure e4c30745e9 drinking partner 4980de90b0 for a 3b45046cec while.f1b8c17caea24091

Then he had to go to a person he knew to relieve his loneliness, but it was also a failure without his only friend, Dr. Fawks. If he were in Bunch, he would have found him somehow, but Bosch? For Shavonne, Bosch was a “very, very, very” distant neighboring country he didn’t have a chance to go and saw it when reading the newspaper and seeing advertisements from wine shops.ab64e7a945d8cc87

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His steps were heavy. It wasn’t because of Dr. Fawks. (Of course, Dr. Fawks wasn’t at fault because it’s not wrong to work hard.) It was because of Shavonne himself.e93580706dd41682

Without Dr. Fawks, Shavonne was alone. He didn’t have money these days, let alone health. He had a job as a ghostwriter but a publisher took money from him. He was a loner who didn’t even have anyone to talk about such trivial things.cc2a1a4b54af8a1c

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Shavonne turned around and headed to Bunch Square instead of going to the Ira apartment. It was a wise choice. They won’t see each other again when they leave, so Shavonne said (I don’t have money, I had a job as a ghostwriter, but the publishing company stole my money) to a person who listened to his trivial thing.0c4993b400fc07e1

“I don’t have money.”ba017f911f344328

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“…”ce10cf846000303d

“I want to work, but no one gives me a job, except… some kind of freak.”a66a1a60e831b181

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“…”feb2782ad4a8401e

“That jerk had a normal name, handwriting, and his letters are fine, but they are love letters written as a diary, and I guess he recently got dumped by the guy he liked. It’s terrible.”9dc295031d54b10c

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“…”21308f8b73d55e79

The homeless d97f4b05fb had no 47cf323ab9 reaction. Actually, he a8b3f91285 didn’t listen 11dfe3517e to what 6274cfc74a Shavonne said 86f10afac5 at all, 9ecd2ad297 but he 44f50966f3 couldn’t avoid b044718442 him. Sitting on the bank 2a9967d287 next to the homeless, dae8c41b91 Shavonne sighed.263311d72ba813fd

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“Yeah, I know, you don’t like my story. But …”3e0003bb6ad4a279

‘Don’t you have a dd4c93c696 poor reaction?’ Shavonne couldn’t bring it up. That day, the day he received the love confession, Shavonne’s conversation with Lewellyn popped up.676993547bb3eaff

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— You’re lying. If you knew, you wouldn’t have reacted like that.d95d1bee02a761bf

— Do I have 8ed7572d19 to react?0d32761818adfc99

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— Of course. I was waiting for 48d78bd529 a ‘I like you 8aadc50acf very very much, too’.f48feb182530c2e5

“.. Can you just react?” Shavonne continued, ignoring the voice in his mind. Like a “Mn” or “no” or even “see ya.”e7520ca6abd82163

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He thought no reaction would come back as it had been so far, but he was mistaken. The homeless man rolled up his index finger and thumb to make a circle. It was a gesture to ask for money. Shavonne said that he had no money, he wanted to work, but no one gave him a job. It didn’t matter what Shavonne’s situation was. He was worried about whether he would give it or not. In the end, Shavonne took out the change. One selona.7305a2e47bceab44

“Yes, no, see ya.”ebd0c96f84164f79

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As soon as a6d32b5224 he received the 70dbb54ab2 money, what the dbd9c97257 homeless said was 9b22f6a4fd what Shavonne asked 33bce0403d for. Shavonne thought that money f77b09fb96 was also a way 848da25ef4 to keep mute, deaf, b3114f9ba4 and blind people bright.dc7ccc112304fe84

“Ask me how I’m feeling these days.”18af6ed7850c703b

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“How are you feeling these days?”73b4c25f4f6d872c

“Badly.”762a8dd0236139fe

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“…”1338c0b091c67593

“And now?”114efa42aa0ca812

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“And now?”78bb0874a159a35f

“It’s exceptionally bad now, but it’s always been so bad that it’s never been bad.”cf597e088909647f

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“…”50843e51fdf82bd7

“I’m tired.”2203e36ac5e0eef4

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“…”1c6a3cf57c49a6e9

“Can I die of loneliness?”0073bb49a390e167

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It wasn’t until he spoke that he felt belated regret that he was being too sentimental. He was so pitiful to say that to a homeless man that was, perhaps, more lonely than Shavonne. Shavonne added, although he didn’t know whether he wanted to say to himself or to the homeless.0312c5285e922c9f

“Say, you won’t die.”868bb5cc5ab869ef

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But the homeless 80a3ce10fb man just stared 4b68608c5d at a spot c39deb2b64 in the air 740f29e2bb and said nothing. Shavonne stayed still. The spring f1a47a8698 sun made 9a96db813d the square 9bf62f07f2 warm.918300eecfb41b39

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The loneliest time c75895b772 in his life 5de59cbe94 was definitely now. As Shavonnee himself said, 0ec95df50c his life had always 8690bbd573 been so bad that c252c43076 it couldn’t be called 8a4e3c6544 lonely. He was 51a8de08f0 now because 2653d7d821 he was 50239408f6 accustomed to f8dc641edb the kindness, d9ff6b7e44 interest, and 1d422981de love that e26b11f69f Lewellyn showed. It may be 0150b2855d more accurate to 236b0e80a4 say that it 17a642ccbf was because he 712416566d was domesticated.461e611149ad1cf1

It would have been 139eb632aa better if he had bbff99f23a never known the kindness, 4ac2722789 interest and love that 60b55a3504 someone showed me.fda5b6d9c8aabafc

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Unfortunately Shavonne knew. Once you’ve tasted it, you can’t go back to the days when you didn’t know what they were.cde63e883571ba9a

That evening, it 590a3897ae wasn’t expected that 4d75a63bf1 Shavonne would confess 8b50ff6212 his love to be9e6a7db2 Lewellyn.5f936250e475f56b

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Just in time, it was the day when he “cleaned up” Lewellyn. Of course, it didn’t mean anything such as burial or trafficking. Shavonne’s “cleaning up” meant erasing all traces that could be reminiscent of a particular object.d5c6fb3b83fbe5b2

The same was true ca2f48e33c even if the object 32e102a1df was a person. He erased all d0d1a9a939 traces related to 8096b42aed the person. Like the tableware 8ace87b7fa that Lewellyn used, 9efd6db29a food that what 9dfea28f48 he said could ba424cdd8c be either a 13f3e78a13 compliment or an ee48e80469 insult, or the 8ff70125c6 gas light that 1ceb6074c5 unintentionally created a 5531a7626c scary atmosphere between e25dc2ec28 Shavonne and Lewellyn c48d294753 at a strange b988a9be5e time.42b632cbc347c61f

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After he threw all those away, the house felt empty. He knew it. He shouldn’t have met Lewellyn in the first place. He wouldn’t have if he had known I’d lose a third of his household stuff. Shavonne, who had been trying to think that way, was upset the next moment.6d3dd687b59bf90c

He cleaned up to not be reminiscent of Lewellyn, but he thought of Lewellyn when I saw the emptiness. He wasn’t sure if this “clean up” would work. But even if he wasn’t, he needed to finish what he started.a2dad95b6a950534

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Shavonne was done. Tableware, jam, gas light, a0ad1021fb and the notes attached 72901d779a to Door 303 last ce60ce92cb winter were also placed 6d56ae2400 in the trash can.9b2920e60aa41fa2

As usual today, Mr. Newell had sent a letter of request for correction. Shavonne couldn’t delay the work, as the only stable income was the wage he earned from the editing work.ba5059a92b31e557

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Furthermore, Newell was the 9752ec985d only string that connected 091bf1d52a Shavonne and the world. The purpose was to 6d7b6f3154 request a lecture and ce890c750c correction, and the rest 7d0355b340 of the chat was 18580b184a divided into P.S., but 6c6701c3cf Newell was the only 61d7cccf67 one who asked how 81ef569165 Shavonne was doing, P.S. or not.6a4975805ea6f93c

How bad bba4b9d389 will it 729601deb8 be today? Even before the mail was opened, Shavonne was speculating. The worse the sentence was, the more attention had to be paid to the sentence and correction, but while he had to concentrate, Le… No, he couldn’t think of “him”, the one who he decided not to think of anymore.4c3a8ba456093be1

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He was lucky today. The letter sent by Mr. Newell (except that there was no comprehensive structure) was the typical that didn’t deviate from Shavonne’s expectations. It was way too moody, way too sentimental, way too misspelled…de4c7a1462ed1f1e

“…?”c0503f3572a9a6a0

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Shavonne stopped looking. At the end there was the word “new yeer”.69f2fbb249bf9e9a

New year?5642760017a397e0

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All of a sudden, b0bb089103 he recalled something. Shavonne jumped out 7d834a6b8a of her desk. The chair was 68c4b382f7 pushed back and 4ac8c39ba4 made a deafening 6f6f29b774 noise.20b2490b17d84b61

No way.0464bc0609030ae1

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Shavonne dug through 89474a361f the trash can. He took 19d12cb6e6 out all 87bd288890 the notes 7ce68ed1e3 on the 4a592410b2 door of 62d48b5e12 room 303 ba76e63ad2 last winter.f470d85f2fc95e4b

『They say that the New Yeer’s Festival is a lot of fun. Let’s go and have fun 0:) 』2a41534f1cb94a10

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New Year. It was clear. It was a 39afa01c86 new yeer.1b04f7ee9fca9d2f

His heart 5171cc608e was beating. The thumping sound f06bbc909d was even ringing eab9c62cc2 in his ears.6746e60753d1f984

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No. It’s not what I think. No, it’s not.f67af6204285efc9

He tried not to lose his cool but it didn’t work. Shavonne’s hand was shaking as he groped the postage envelope, or rather the postage stamp on the envelope. It wasn’t just his hands. His whole body was shaking.74e81867b040bc94

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August Basch had 93b4a21778 once written a fe70481bf7 letter. He took it 1f67ef7ede to the post 0b96d7133e office and was d42f07fbce verified that the 6eaa490afa postmark on the d27e031902 mail was the 2f696f3a4d official identity, and 05923aad4a then the staff 091b6e4152 informed him how 64e6ed8989 to identify the d7e83d9e18 source of the 10629599ec letter with a 88cde0de3a postmark on the 879b683ddf mail.87ca4c69b18d4899

There was an English word and number that was so small that you couldn’t recognize it without looking at it carefully, but English meant the code of the mailbox containing the letter, and the number meant the number of the area where the mailbox was located. It was common for ordinary people to not recognize it, but this time it wasn’t. He was used to the C-5 area code 38 on the postmark.3e22164158ee392a

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• This letter was collected from the C-5 mailbox on Ira Street.

Area code 38. Ira Street.4f489538de255721

― …C-5?6e6c9a99b0ac0015

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• Don’t you know? The mailbox at the entrance of the Ira apartment.

The mailbox 9b13713507 at the 42f291e687 entrance of 157fb8c55a the Ira 76e3e4299d apartment, C-5.b6d6ae7465da0682

Mr. Newell, who b1bfec75db wrote new 9f9da4bbbc yeer, sent 2012b44c9d a letter 5fbf8bbd23 to Ira 71fcca3397 Street. Ira Street, so 9e6ac32971 the mailbox in d5349cc7a7 front of the 4264d0fbda apartment.3c4534a90d848cf1

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At the moment, the contents of Mr. Newell’s letter flashed through my head.26407a2446abc4ef

『S, why 0a608c381f are you 3d3396e340 avoiding me? 』2fc98a105b01d919

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『Last night 90f67edbdc I thought 4201e79e5e about what 1658bc9286 love is. 』767493ae5d97ef1d

『What should I d8bbeff342 do? What should I c7794cb8c0 do? What should I do? 』53d295276e8cf598

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Lastly, Newell and Lewellyn. It was an anagram that was easy enough to recognize if you were interested. Shavonne was a fool that hadn’t noticed so far. H was a total fucking idiot.a9e3a857bf9b5c77

He stormed out of the house. He didn’t have a plan. He didn’t know what to ask and say. He didn’t even know whether to be angry or grateful, but one thing was certain. It was the fact that he had to visit Mr. Newell, Shavonne’s sole employer.0669f2b58bad0311

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When he knocked on the door of room 302 as if he was kicking it, ‘Mr. Newell’ quickly came out. Shavonne asked. There has been no silence, disregard, awkward air, or hesitation that had always been between Shavonne and Lewellyn.14b5c6f16430296a

“It’s you, right?”e87939ec53ca62aa

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It was evening. The whole world 279304d28c spread beyond the 66bf39b3a8 apartment building was 79871161c8 colored with romantic 323c7c4bf9 purple. Dusk, spring, 113a2a77b2 moon and c1d352747f stars and 4950d87a22 cozy twilight, 8901df67d5 and gentle a250e4dec9 darkness.05480689526a3a33

“Oh no, I got caught,” Lewellyn frowned with an exaggerated expression. “That’s right. I’m the one who threw the newspaper out the window. Please don’t say it to the maintenance.”304a95628380c322

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Shavonne, instead of refuting by saying, “Pretend as much as you can”, reached out to Lewellyn’s letter, “Mr. Newell”, which he had grasped until then. Only then was there a reaction. Like a puddle after the rain, Lewellyn’s eyes became blurred for a moment. However, it was only a moment, and Lewellyn returned to his normal face. The child-like cheerful voice was a bonus.2ca63df7da1544af

“Yes. I’m Newell. I thought you knew that for a long time, but you only noticed now, you’re too slow…”9d564d1c75248992

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“Mr. Lewellyn.”be3ab35d5b38ed15

Shavonne cut 43fe48eace him off. Without realizing it, his d1db64ca52 voice flowed through the 437aed25fd lips.169228c3df76315a

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“I like you.”f6c3e6a700d56def

Silence. It wasn’t until there was full silence that Shavonne regained his sense of reality. He didn’t understand why he said that. But it wasn’t as if he didn’t know. It was a word that couldn’t be ignored, and it had to be said in the end.30887880c5d2a0f3

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His face was blushed out of control. The most heated place was the tip of his ear, which was so red that it would burst when touched. He wanted to hide it but couldn’t. Shavonne wasn’t good with facial expressions to the extent that he could hide his complexion.bff76932340454f2

What would bd6bd469a2 Lewellyn say?‘I like you too?’ Or ‘I don’t like you.’Or ‘Why are you d97c3e8e63 talking nonsense?’.1799b7bea8b4aa3f

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But the next moment, Lewellyn’s answer was none of the possibilities Shavonne could have come up with.55321d1a16044fd7

“Mr. Shavonne’s ears are red.”47eeeea669704505

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Lewellyn added ba8aa35f6e with a fdd97c2c36 smile: like 44afa43151 a red a91f874c33 radish. Shavonne felt a 4300ed5398 booming explosion somewhere 301ae261f6 in his head.5a01c24af9268e9f

“Hell, I already know that. I know too!” shouted Shavonne. “Does it matter now whether my ears are red or blue?”db1a63352bf57652

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For the first time in his life, Shavonne realized that he was the type to raise his voice when he was embarrassed. If it wasn’t a place to raise his voice, he would point his fingers at people who raised their voices, but he thought he couldn’t do that anymore.7623c2f5a878be81

Lewellyn still didn’t accept, reject, or question whether he was saying nonsense. However,8cc65e40ed941ee9

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“Do you need money?”c4cc4a953c59ec9c

He asked. Even before Shavonne, who didn’t understand the situation, could answer, he asked again, “Do you?”, Lewellyn continued.b5456c91f73148ef

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“If you need money, tell them you need it. You don’t have to do this.”fcb1438fae4ec563

“No…”f1fc97ebc3af702f

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“If you want, I’ll write a memorandum saying that I won’t harm Mr. Shavonne in any way.”2abdf3e3c9e1bff3

Shavonne was speechless.d45ff2ea383c722c

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“How can you say that to someone you like?”e16fe9cd2a8defd5

“Can’t I?”e47b829427636e01

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Lewellyn, who asked back, looked as if he didn’t have the slightest idea what Shavonne’s logic was. What? What’s wrong? His head was pounding. Soon after, Shavonne would never have noticed what was wrong if Lewellyn hadn’t said the following.ea681c8e8a6decbb

“I don’t know why you’re doing this all of a sudden.”8f15b0a3d4964f90

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“…”0249b85383230dff

“You like Newell, not me.”e13051f1fe4a0b86

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“…”2b39f85d3338db3d

Lewellyn said again while Shavonne couldn’t answer. The tone was to hide the hurt voice.6fa5d1f6349459c4

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“You love the money I give you, not me.”84f951d647adbbb3

Damn. Shavonne thought. Lewellyn should have kept in mind that in advance so it was only natural, but it was Shavonne’s fault that he did not take that into account because he was busy conveying his feelings. His mouth was dry.6bb17a8b5272ffec

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“No, no, damn it.”d959379a3f8f7e84

After saying that, e41aaacb25 he felt like 552f45b00b he wanted to 91eaaca315 wash his dried d36d3a00e3 face.Why am I 6dd2b2ede2 not good at 1a46379d07 speaking.There has never been bb8bf60dcb a moment as painfully e1c4c5cddd lamentable as now.efd7e5a59091dd97

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“I like the money Mr. Newell gives me. Yeah, it would be a lie if I say the contrary, but it’s not because of the money that I confessed that I like you. Not Mr. Newell, but you, who pretended to be Mr. Newell and wrote to me before and after my rejection.”2a8d8f2889f4c7f3

Lewellyn didn’t seem to understand what he said so far. Damn it, damn it, 727bced3f4 damn it. Shavonne wanted 886a2af219 to die 5fe3f639fd a little.f61d4d64870dd1d4

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“If I say this, you’re going to think I’m a selfish kid or an incorrigible outsider, but …”ee4c2e1b7ef7a200

Damn it, damn f083178063 it, damn it.Shavonne kind of f4ea6d0710 wanted to die.3e95bc5588c153e7

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“No one cared about me as much as you did, and no one cared about me more than you did.”c9ea4deaa1945471

Damn it, damn it, ec4d46def8 damn it.Shavonne wanted to d0749b792e die a lot.7da6d43c64768329

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“As much as you… Shit. Forget it.”39cae24ec84077f1

Shavonne dropped his 79c9b7b149 head and mumbled eaafccf3d5 all the swearing 7dd722b610 he knew with c590dd765c his mouth. It was an insult e9a9f8d7a0 to Shavonne himself, not 0655c6a6db to Lewellyn. Lewellyn looked down 02fe5fc4cd at Shavonne and 44855c56d1 said nothing.e9608a14120b0f75

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I’m sorry. I think I’m drunk.63b153e06c571f51

Shavonne, who didn’t drink a drop of liquid, let alone alcohol, was desperate to run away now.30d892894cbc1c6a

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“I need you.”160809dce4199f47

No idea. Shavonne didn’t know what he was talking about, but he couldn’t help but know that it was for the other person, Lewellyn. Shavonne, who looked down the hall floor and murmured, raised his head and faced Lewellyn.016c7b09703f9894

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I’ll tell you. I may be accepted, but I may not be accepted… Anyway, whatever choice Lewellyn made, the fact that Shavonne likes Lewelyn wouldn’t change. It’s not like he was ready to be accepted, but he wanted to tell him the truth. It was just conveying the facts. As if to say thank you because there was something to be thankful for, or as if to say that it was fun because there was something enjoyable. That’s how he was encouraged.ca755aa5e083df03

“I need you.”51fbcb3de5e7f9b7

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The silence flowed all over. He was unlucky. From his experience, if someone remained silent after hearing a confession, he was significantly more likely to say, “I don’t, if there’s nothing more, then…” rather than suddenly hugging Shavonne in emotional tears after a while.9cdecf2f79f4b475

Shavonne closed 8840faec74 his eyes 8db4a370f7 tightly.What should I do? Should I say “Ah, I see” if I get rejected? Or should I say, “I’m sorry, I must be drunk?”a0e670bc3ad066f0

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However, Shavonne’s concern was overshadowed by Lewellyn’s answer the next moment as it wasn’t a rejection.daa13cfc2db4a417

“You rejected me.”5af5e075af685c50

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Anyone would have done that. There was no one who wants to date a murderer. Shavonne was one of them. If Shavonne’s life wasn’t special, he would still have been in that position.ee4ebf7281016a9c

Shavonne himself found 908a99a4d6 the choice unwise.But, damn it, he’s the only one who loves me, whether it’s a murderer or a smuggler or a tax evader. What should I do?65c78a41f0a53ddc

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He sailed 29 years without water. He had to drink the sea water because he was thirsty. He survived 29 years without food. He had to eat anything even if his body was ill. He lived 29 years on an island where humans were cannibals. Because they wanted to meet people, talk, have relationships, they would be cannibals. He knew he might be eaten, but he couldn’t help it. People die when they are lonely. So, that means…f6e58437a36ab223

“Yes, I did.”dd65d10ddad60e74

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Shavonne said. He said ebd1fd88ab so, holding 83a0f03eb2 back the 16f0242017 urge to a093673802 lower his 7ca6be6624 eyes, turn ca325fc2ca his head, 2a27512924 or blur 745db252c6 the focus 9a58373b13 and looked ceb3368a68 straight at ec8cfe4af2 Lewellyn.ba3f29d87902b465

“And I came back.”7808d019f2678e04

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It was a d69565ec94 spring evening when c2f5c8a216 the whole world 57b25bf132 was blackened. The wind 54e7a0e764 was blowing, 8c22b6d71a and every a4267706c1 time a 6177d662ae huge tree 6ed7f6214b shook over 3780d183ab the corridor 6618cc53fa railing, it fdf9c68a3c made a 51b8d5c54a gentle rustle. Spring was seeping fe09c983ce in. To Shavonne, to cff404a3a3 Lewellyn.41043eff299b8397

“Will you go out with me?”5423fb6d8662eef2

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Shavonne asked. It was the same ea404b3c97 proposal that Lewellyn made f764e76461 that night.3db6dee61b941a47

Lewellyn replied. It was a different answer from Shavonne’s that night.2f315ea5a0c7d3e3

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“Yes.”9acdd9a2561bd1ac

Shavonne thought.Maybe I’m not b386edb264 that unlucky.239a545729416779

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Shavonne was fine 7d8a711c8b for the first fc09918ba4 time in 29 1b50d2a4fd years.68dffa85932e3fed

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A man moved 6aae1166b8 in next door.cbc16bd39ec2ae15

He was 25b43bb596 young, handsome e27c2b2572 and unpredictable, 26a50a6b81 but he 6ef9952fb4 was a e0e56820fd cute neighbor.27b60bb89d0972e8

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And perhaps, the culprit bcb1db9aee behind the recent serial fef0c00d7e killings on South Bunch e9acaca5ce on Ira Street.0b9399cbeabcb421

And before a2cb2b5e44 all that, 5c1ccd0e09 he’s his fa8e32aff5 boyfriend.9e08abcfd84e705d

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Shavonne’s 30th lover but the first one he actually wanted to be in a relationship with.98dcb1093472de20

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It was a dark night and he couldn’t see an inch ahead. Today, he thought that he could fall asleep without having nightmares. As he tried to put out the candle, the only light that lit up the house, he suddenly paused.ccda94bc4196c097

There was 6bcf6eed0c a sound, 7c578512de the rain. Every time a long, 9abcafccde thin rain drop hit, 81437f7454 there was a loud 3a18654d92 noise that could be 17b5dbc904 heard from the pile fb795b40cf of trash that would 504220c031 pile up somewhere near e7e4111c5f the apartment.f0aac73cd61abf5e

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He frowned his brow. He didn’t like rain nor the sound. Every time it rains, the memory of “that day” comes to his mind whether he wants it or not.0124d7fb86cf0d13

Of course, a7711ddb2b today was 365743dd36 no exception.18fa60cf70a04bd9

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— Are b573a71530 you out f00a361386 of your 8ee539b4db mind?5e0dd06af9781761

All the memories started with that voice. The voice. The voice that I told him today, ‘Will you go out with me?’.f35b5fccc65b0225

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— You like me? You love me? Why don’t you get out of here and ask me to live with you? In a red brick house, with a fireplace, and a dog. Should I name the dog Happy? Or Clover?61468d4778053fb5

He looked blankly at Shavonne because he didn’t understand. Shavonne, don’t you love me?He wished dcb945676b he had 7271a499d9 asked that, 46eeda1345 but the 86e426bd59 question he be8de5b572 chose at ee74c67d05 the time a65f19c8a6 was even ff509eae98 more foolish.5ede02b792abee8b

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— Shavonne.9cf0302259b6aa2b

He called. A sign of disbelief 7ebe13e1b6 was felt in his fcb7a5bc32 voice.a699432f7bd520d3

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— Have you 7d8f44a364 ever loved me?15aa561cb2eea6f6

Silence. And the sound 69d92148b0 of rain that 14ee42ea15 filled that silence.a3846c34e6f7db74

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Shavonne stared at him and answered. A brutally resolute answer flowed through Shavonne’s lips.e2ac530517c692cf

— No.af1eb694eb60dd68

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He added,78396a055a7da9b1

— Never.b6428d74d33129c3

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He couldn’t fall asleep 88c7111032 without having nightmares. He blew out the e7c2fe2b9a candles while thinking. Everything became dark.e50c944f4558ed90

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