SSEI | Chapter 4.9

Fortunately, the kiss stopped before he suffocated. The man left Yuan, who was gasping and coughing, and drew a Red Blade from Yuan’s nape down to his chest.73a2bf558ff7a157

“Ah…!”762bf14f5ec6fc10

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A sharp pain and chill rushed inside all at once. The restraint suit, which had been wrapped around him in several layers, tore open, leaving a thin red line where the blade had passed. As Yuan shuddered and struggled, the man’s eyes widened.ff6cbad97b34e6af

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you.”facfde54d0f94d50

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Despite saying that, he buried his head in Yuan’s nape without hesitation. It was like a dog licking a wound. When the wet, hot tongue touched the red-drawn wound, the wound opened, and a stinging pain swept over. It would hurt less if he just left it alone!3aeb9a12a1bd718a

“I’ll finish soon. Be good, Yuan.”e1a7c5c85a590512

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“Just don’t start! If you stop now, I’ll pretend nothing happened! Please, ugh…!”8ac27d54d9be3f15

The man’s tongue recklessly explored even the uninjured areas. Every time the man buried his head in Yuan’s nape and forcibly bit and sucked on the tender flesh, a sensation mixed with pain and a ticklish feeling scraped chillingly down his spine.eed822ed46896bfe

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When the protruding bump was bitten, a strange tingling pain swept over. It was an unfamiliar chill that he didn’t know whether to call heat or itchiness.6b6d20ee849f16c9

If it had just been painful, he might have been able to endure it. However, the fact that this itchy and hot sensation didn’t feel entirely painful was bewildering. It seemed like his mind was broken, paralyzing his ability to feel proper sensations. Just like how that man, despite being out of his mind, kept apologizing while treating Yuan roughly.4a6b9d1694fdd9a8

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Because that unfamiliar sensation was excessively terrifying, Yuan tried with all his might to push the man away. But it was resistance that was doomed to fail from the start. It only served to provoke the man’s nerves in a strange direction.756a0e65a73fd68f

“……!”b8b1d4ea68069df3

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The man’s body didn’t budge. He just lifted his head and stared directly at Yuan. His eyes were still vacant as if looking at someone else…. Yet, on the other hand, he seemed quite flustered and sad.ecbe65feeda4d9fb

“Are you mad? Do you hate the sight of me now?”bba34c326b3f9819

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“St-stop it. Just kill me here. You’ll regret it once you come to your senses…!”6ab1a551647e4123

“Don’t say such hateful things. I’m the one at fault, so why should you die, huh?”729c12941e0c4137

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Despite his actions being utterly rough, his words dripped with honey. He tore the restraint suit, which was already in tatters, further to expose Yuan’s naked body, spread Yuan’s thighs wide, and pinned him down with his legs so he couldn’t move.0c099698eab88f51

“No, I don’t want this.”65b4ead34328483e

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“It’s okay. I’ll take care of it soon, so don’t worry.”e4c994d5b68d99ed

What kind of problem did your lover have that this is the solution?! The more Yuan groaned and struggled to escape, the more persistently the man pressed down on him. At first, he held Yuan’s arms, but at some point, he completely embraced Yuan, trapping him in his arms. The hand rubbing his back and the rough cheek brushing against his were overwhelmingly burdensome.d2e784f1c6afb294

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The sensation of something heavy rubbing against his lower body sent chills down his spine. The man, who had somehow unbuckled and lowered his pants, pressed his own against Yuan’s exposed groin. Even though it was his lower body being pressed, it felt like his throat was being choked.c1f5dc9e549eaa62

The panic stemmed from the contradiction. His brain, imagining a terrifying future from that absurd bulk, trembled in fear, but his body, not yet feeling pain, was reacting like a male who had lost his senses. Why be scared? Right now, it’s just primal stimulation. His words are all gentle, even if his actions are reckless, and maybe something good will happen….3623aa5836d5c63c

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“Ugh, ah.”8ba7ab49606b19dc

That’s why it’s even scarier. The root of Yuan’s fear of that man lay there. That man always bullied, tormented, and put Yuan in danger. Yet, at the core of those actions was a kindness that was almost indifferent.d65c94c61a3492df

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Even when his neck was cut, his head split, and he was used under the guise of cooperation, he ended up in this severe state. Yet, at the core of that man’s actions was a strange gentleness. Even though he knew he shouldn’t trust it, his instincts were always drawn to it.c676927658668b9a

‘I don’t want to be enchanted. He’s just a strange person…!’64702c6f16cfbaea

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Shaking his head desperately was of no use. As Yuan’s member was stimulated and began to twitch slightly, the man seemed to take it as acceptance, letting out a faint smile and burying his head in Yuan’s nape. The member that had been rubbing against his perineum slowly rubbed against the cleft of his buttocks.c9ba3cda22a49051

Don’t act like you’re going to do something great. You’re the one who’s going to tear apart a person’s insides and kill them! Yuan groaned and twisted his body, but that didn’t solve the situation.46e1949da6294851

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‘I can’t escape.’a48ec80b907c4b68

Moreover, that man wasn’t even in his right mind. No matter how much Yuan raised his voice, this man couldn’t escape the illusion that blinded his eyes. No matter how much Yuan struggled, he couldn’t escape from the man. Should he have let Lork kill this man earlier? Regret washed over him too late.461d2f9cba64d576

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If he continued ea54722b67 to be subjected 235ddbc4eb to unwanted acts 23877d8acc like this, and 847d5815c4 the time limit c394551ea9 ended, causing this 6772186b01 space to disappear, 501d97a5bb he would die ba88e475fb just like that. Unable to da4d270fac think of 5922a0c7f1 a single 27df0cfeaf way to 18cfe0a653 escape, Yuan 8f2e65a564 truly felt 65816d33f2 like crying.c87d64f8fe35f532

‘What the hell is this? I don’t want to accept this kind of reality. This is a dream. No, I’d rather dream too.’d30f1906e51d1c77

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He didn’t want to be embraced by a confused man who didn’t know how to handle things. It was horrifying that the man wasn’t in his right mind, and he didn’t want to acknowledge the reality where he was feeling and groaning awkwardly. Rather than focusing on a man who was deluded into thinking he was holding his lover, Yuan wanted to imagine that he was being held by his lover, even if it was a bit pathetic, because otherwise, it seemed more painful than dying.22daaa81da55d4fd

After all, everything that happens here is like a dream of one night. No matter how fiercely they fight, get angry, or mix bodies in this strange world, it all disappears the next day. If it’s the same dream, Yuan genuinely thought he’d rather have a good dream.a2670c223104c009

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If the one holding him now were his lover, he would truly be happy. He wouldn’t be treated as a substitute by a deranged person, nor would he feel guilty about the awkward pleasure washing over him while being treated like that….ee65ad0460e2a1de

But Yuan couldn’t even properly fall into a fantasy like the man.8744ee4a18e6256f

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‘How did I end up in this world, leaving my lover behind?’77e59adbb07b960e

The sad thoughts kept surfacing, fueling his self-reproach. If he hadn’t set foot in this world from the beginning, he wouldn’t have gone through this hardship. He didn’t know what purpose his past self had for coming here, but Yuan thought that if he hadn’t harbored clumsy ambitions, he might have lived a modest life outside.c5a66b8e2d3c77a6

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So what if he didn’t live long? As long as he could spend a quiet end with his lover, that would be enough….218910d1435f4f5e

[No, that’s not it.]

But then, an 1318077e44 unknown whisper echoed 4c0f2c3276 within Yuan, contradicting c1b11a962b his daydream.3fd68aac76e8151b

[You didn’t leave your lover behind. Your lover abandoned you and left.]

He couldn’t understand why such a thought suddenly came to him. It was nothing more than an unfounded speculation without any reason or basis. However, the moment he recalled those words, Yuan felt an unbearable sorrow.3f71c7be425df291

It was as if he had remembered a loss he didn’t want to recall. He became aware of a painful and shocking emptiness that made the immediate problems before him seem insignificant.bcacc43edf311a4d

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And then, Yuan felt tears that hadn’t flowed for a long time trickling down his cheeks.22a3f04d0c2789fe

“Yuan? Why are you crying?”3c40eb146461e780

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A man’s voice, full of confusion, brushed past his ears. The hands that had been teasing his body suddenly stopped, and the man’s fingers brushed against his wet cheeks.b89ebe1a2a6830a2

“Don’t cry. It’s my fault. Yuan, it’s all my fault, so please.”fc0a2018dd1e1f4d

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Though he hadn’t come to his senses, it seemed the man intended to comfort Yuan. Even though he thought that no matter how much this person repented, it wouldn’t solve the problem, Yuan still felt a slight easing in his heart.5861a87332f64bce

He wanted someone, anyone, 240d162d04 to understand his sorrow. That childish cc905921a4 yet essential 57a275776f desire was 3041bf8c8f being somewhat c210667c43 fulfilled by 7b8bb45a9c this person.ee6331e9106b03f2

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‘Huh? Wait a minute.’e364499d510070e5

But contrary to that ab656938d2 desire being fulfilled, Yuan 7c1da4f87e felt something inside him 70882081e3 being drawn out and 41a2a222d4 absorbed by the man. It felt like 82b3f135a5 energy, or perhaps 69be9db205 the essence of abcf9337e9 his soul.d074e2b27d0e43cd

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‘Could it be that because this person saw me crying, he failed to fulfill the source of his desire? And now he’s absorbing my life force?’a05e653a48779235

Yuan recalled what the man had explained. Come to think of it, this person had mentioned that for some reason, he always failed to go all the way. If it wasn’t because this man was impotent, perhaps the situation of the other person resisting and crying was far from the ‘desire’ this man wanted to fulfill.57ab3bececae76c4

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So, is ace3b63582 he going bef861749d to die 8f8f9693e0 now? There had never been 98d472fd50 a moment when death 2db03213e4 approached so welcomingly, but 6c5558062e Yuan felt a strange 6ce16461ec sense of regret.dce5e373dc760816

“I’m sorry. Don’t cry. Is it because I left you? I’m sorry for making you lonely. But I, I did it for you.”b75d5fd2aad72aec

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He thought that the man, who was babbling incomprehensible words, seemed lonely somehow. If he died, would this man die here alone, struggling without knowing why? This timid person, who violated others at will but was always concerned about others’ reactions from start to finish, and eventually had his heart broken by seeing the other person cry.1c2d2cb2f984e133

“I’ll come find you soon. So please don’t cry.”6948e957e71abbf5

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So Yuan whispered impulsively. Though it was impulsive, it wasn’t something he couldn’t say. He really intended to join this man. When he returned to the sanctuary, he needed to go with the Red Man to find a doctor and learn more about the cure for the Crimson Disease….4edfceb4ad31b81e

“I’m sorry.”6af43756c7548ad6

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“It’s nice that you’re apologizing. You must say that again when you wake up next time. Got it?”735c23bcaf35d6be

“I’m sorry.”c688dc8287e9d529

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“Anyway, you can’t do this next time. It’s good to look for a cure for the Crimson Disease, but don’t mistake me for your lover and attack me. If this continues, I’d rather bear the aftereffects myself….”6ee85315dae1007b

“I’m sorry, Yuan. I’m sorry….”74e056e442c53126

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The man’s voice, which kept muttering apologies, gradually faded away. Like a log that had burned from head to toe and turned to ashes, Yuan’s body gradually grew cold.4445b7223fee2e90

Feeling his vision bac97a50e7 turn pitch black, b3bf31cc8b Yuan closed his 4c8244987d eyes.adf611bbf879e839

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Points: 2450 173a71bcec (Passing through bb1f4f3138 the Day 12bdc1d24a Zone +100, e0d7b6178e Passing through 7fe400e97d the Evening 3aed94183c Zone +200, 73c4bcddc5 Acquiring a 8db579256f Weapon +50, c6f3af176b Assisting in c2a26fea6f Defeating 4 c050446e4a Enemies +600 1674642fbe (First Kill 8709b0f92a 3x Applied), 1950f999ac Killing 1 d48a3080a0 Enemy (500) a00cb0ad8b and Acquiring 0d51540458 Quest Item c548d4b829 +1000)2211769402caaf0e

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Cause of Death: You got e49732044f caught up in d6e35b7204 the aftereffects of e4faa01fef using the Core 2a1dde46dd of Calamity. This time, your dd7b3df438 soul was taken c27556bc38 away.1b44ec650253b71b

Number of Deaths: 4 times13b5d6fa4e9f6a5f

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