FG | Chapter 1.2

An Esper’s desire for guiding was instinctual. But if the rampage exceeded a certain threshold, that instinct transformed into aggression. In other words, if they didn’t receive sufficient guiding, they would try to kill the Guide right in front of them.

I crooked a finger at the starving beast.

“Come here.”

There was no need to treat him like a person. He was no different from the monsters inside a Gate, moving purely by instinct.

No one was watching anyway, and Yeo Eundo wouldn’t remember any of this afterward.

Following my command obediently, the bastard grabbed me by the collar and yanked me forward. Then, he kissed me.

His tongue, scorching hot and dripping with desperation, forced its way into my mouth. At the same time, my skin prickled as an ominous sensation spread through me.

Reverse guiding.

An Esper seizing control from a Guide felt like being thrown into a lake covered in black oil.

‘No wonder Guides keep dying from this.’

It was impossible to gauge how deep the contamination ran. Now, I understood why even dozens of high-ranking Guides couldn’t stabilize him.

On the outside, he looked human, but inside, he was pitch-black. In comparison, the aura of the monsters inside a Gate felt cleaner. If I wasn’t careful, I’d be the one getting devoured.

His dark, sticky energy coiled around me like it wanted to consume me whole. A D-class Guide being reverse-guided by a rampaging S-class Esper was essentially a death sentence.

…That is, if I really was just a D-class.

Pop!

I lifted my gaze and focused forward. In that instant, without even needing to guide him properly, the filthy energy writhing around me was purified in a flash.

The force that had been gnawing at me hesitated, retreating ever so slightly. But the unclean energy surged forward again, crawling up from the top of my head as if it had just been waiting for me to let my guard down.

The tongue invading my mouth grew more frantic, swirling and probing as though searching for something. His hands, meanwhile, slipped beneath my shirt, gripping my waist as tightly as a beast locking its jaws around its prey’s throat, refusing to let go until the life drained out of it.

I narrowed my eyes. Then, I granted him exactly what he wanted.

I poured every last bit of guiding into him.

‘Eat until you explode and drop dead.’

The guiding I had been holding back burst forth like a waterfall, regardless of whether his vessel could handle it or not. Yeo Eundo’s pupils dilated. Just a moment ago, he was devouring me like he was starving, yet now, he shuddered in shock. Well, it was only natural—he had probably never received this much guiding in his life.

When an Esper receives guiding beyond their grade or takes in too much at once, they experience Guiding Shock. Even an S-class Esper wouldn’t be immune to the side effects.

As much as I wanted to make him drop dead from an overdose, Yeo Eundo wasn’t just any S-class Esper in South Korea—he was the most untouchable one.

If he were to die, even if it were ruled as death due to a rampage, I, the only witness, would be buried in endless reports and statements.

He should be grateful that we weren’t inside a Gate. If there had been no eyes watching, I wouldn’t have held back. I would’ve acted purely on instinct, just like him.

Yeo Eundo had tried to kill me through Reverse Guiding, but because of the tangled interests involved, I couldn’t afford to kill him in return.

‘Tch.’

In the end, I stopped the guiding right before he went into shock and grabbed a fistful of his hair. As I yanked, his lips separated from mine. His pupils were unfocused, utterly out of it from the guiding overdose, but suddenly, he yanked me closer by the waist.

Before I could even push him away, Yeo Eundo locked me in his arms, securing not just my waist but my wrists as well, leaving me completely immobile.

Chup.

A damp, lukewarm sensation touched my neck with a wet sound. My body stiffened like a rock. My shoulders tensed and flinched on their own. Feeling that, Yeo Eundo pressed even closer.

Then, something large and heavy pressed against me down below.

The unfamiliar sensation made my already tense body jolt in shock.

“The hell are you—?!”

With my free hand, I shoved Yeo Eundo’s shoulder. I felt him budge slightly, thinking he would finally let go, but the moment I lowered my guard—

He bit my lip.

“Ugh!”

As pain shot through me, my lips instinctively parted—and his tongue pushed in.

He licked and swallowed my breath, completely disregarding his own limits as he attempted another Reverse Guiding.

I tried to grab and tear at anything I could to push him away, but he clung to me like a man dying of thirst, unwilling to let go.

He ravaged my mouth as if it was his right. In his golden eyes, there was nothing but greedy hunger.

“Hff—!”

As my breath grew ragged and sticky, an unbearable, suffocating pain wrapped around me. My patience snapped when he dug in as if he wanted to devour me whole.

I clenched my fist and threw a punch at Yeo Eundo’s cheek.

Thud.

My hand throbbed like I had struck a solid rock, but at least I had managed to break free from that goddamn kiss.

“Haaah. Ugh…”

I staggered back and immediately clamped a hand over my mouth. The stinging pain kept me from closing my lips properly. A metallic taste filled my mouth—I had probably bitten my tongue in the process.

I couldn’t kill Yeo Eundo. I had to endure this.

I knew that.

But the boiling rage rising within me was dangerously close to turning murderous.

‘Since when have I ever been the patient type?’

I lifted my gaze and glared at Yeo Eundo.

Even after getting slapped, he didn’t react. Instead, his head tilted slightly. I locked my gaze onto him, preparing to kill him if he tried lunging again.

But just as I was about to snuff out his insignificant life, his golden eyes quivered like rippling waves.

“…?”

Then, in an odd, almost whimpering voice, he spoke.

“…More. Please.”

His eyes were misty, brimming with desperation.

I was speechless.

He looked like a kid who just had their candy stolen, pleading for guiding like it was his lifeline.

Some of my anger ebbed away.

Taking a deep breath, I said firmly, “No. If you take any more, you’ll go into Guiding Shock.”

“Please…”

When I refused, Yeo Eundo rubbed his head against my shoulder like a damn cat.

Fearing he’d try licking my neck again, I pushed his face away.

“I said no.”

He was completely out of it from Guiding Addiction. My words probably weren’t even registering in his head.

Then, as if that wasn’t enough, Yeo Eundo grabbed my wrist and pressed his face into my palm.

His breath tickled against my skin, making me instinctively pull away.

But then, like a foal that had just caught fire, he clung to me even harder.

His gaze flickered toward my lips.

I immediately smacked his forehead.

“Fuck off, I said NO!”

I tried to avoid the kiss somehow, but the guy grabbed my chin and pressed his lips against mine. A hot breath carrying a sweet scent rushed in. My head was filled with heat, as if I was about to lose my mind from the intoxicating smell.

As the kiss continued, his fingers tried to slip inside my shirt. Slowly tracing up my waist, his fingertips reached my chest. I bit down hard on his tongue.

“……!”

His body flinched. Even though I had bitten his tongue, he didn’t pull away, instead turning his head. When I raised my arm to block him from kissing me further, his eyelids fluttered as he urged for more guiding.

“More…….”

“Back off. There’s no more.”

“More, give me more…….”

“You’re not listening.”

He leaned in again, trying to kiss me no matter what.

The minimum condition for guiding is physical contact. When saliva or bodily fluids mix, the efficiency of guiding increases, so Yeo Eundo’s obsession with kissing must be because of that.

After repeatedly preventing him from reaching my lips, he started shedding tears like chicken droppings. His shoulders shook as he cried so pitifully, it almost felt like I had done something unforgivable.

The Yeo Eundo I had only heard about in rumors was definitely different from the Espers I had seen so far. The higher the Esper’s rank, the more their personalities tended to be messed up. It was probably because they didn’t have enough guiding, so their personalities turned out like that.

In comparison, Yeo Eundo only struggled right before going into a rampage, but once stabilized, he was surprisingly trivial.

Yeo Eundo, his face soaked with tears, spoke.

“Please. Give me more.”

“…….”

When I didn’t respond, perhaps out of desperation, he kept pleading as if trying to woo me. For a moment, seeing him so harmless, my resolve almost wavered.

“Esper Yeo Eundo, I said no.”

“I’ll do anything.”

His hair tickled the tip of my nose. His gem-like eyes, filled with tears, sparkled even more brightly.

But what can’t be done can’t be done, so I tried to push him away firmly, but Yeo Eundo suddenly grabbed my hand. He then pressed his lips against the back of my hand. He kissed each knuckle and teased them with the tip of his tongue. It was such a messy act, but then he spoke.

“I’ll give myself to you.”

He must have been so drunk on guiding that everything coming out of his mouth was nonsense.

I slapped his hand away and said.

“I don’t need it.”

“……Why?”

He looked at me with an expression that seemed unable to believe my refusal. There was no need for a reason, but I didn’t know what more he wanted me to say.

“Because it’s useless.”

“……I’m good at it.”

Out of nowhere, he claimed he was good at it and started stroking the back of my neck. His fingers blatantly moved down to my collarbone.

His other hand wrapped around my waist and slipped inside my shirt, touching my skin. From my waist, it went even lower. When his hand tried to move from inside my shirt to inside my pants, I grabbed it.

“What do you think you’re doing?”

“I’ll do it well. I can do it well.”

The conversation was going nowhere. His fingertips tapped near my pelvis. His fingers moved meticulously, as if playing piano keys.

“Ah.”

When I flinched from the tickling sensation, he kissed me as if he had been waiting for that reaction.

This kiss was different from the hurried and rough one from before. The wet sound of his tongue pushing into my narrow mouth was unmistakably loud.

‘Damn it.’

He pushed me against the wall. But instead of the hard wall, his arm was the first to touch the back of my head. Yeo Eundo firmly held my chin and continued the deep kiss. However, unlike before, he didn’t use reverse guiding. Instead of reverse guiding, he was trying to draw excitement from me.

Even as his saliva slid down my throat, instead of feeling nauseous, I almost let out a moan against my will. I barely managed to hold it back, but then his hand, which had been tracing down my waistline, started groping the inside of my thigh.

His deliberate touch eventually found my crotch and grasped it firmly.

“Ah!”

As he rubbed it over my pants, a tingling electric sensation spread throughout my body. My waist buckled, and my legs lost strength. As if he had been waiting for this, he grabbed my buttocks and pulled me into his embrace.